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trigger warning; a literal eating disorder, don't read if you're sensitive to this kind of stuff.
ya girl ate 450 calories today, exercised /a bit/ and still feels like she ate too much.
in all honesty, i'm so disgusted by myself right now. i'm heavy, always have been and i just hate myself for it. i'm going with friends tomorrow i really hope one of them notices my weight loss (it isn't much but my face is definitely slimmer). i can't see anything too, i'm as blind as i have ever been, my mum refuses to take me to the optician and my dad is broke as shit, so i have to get a job really soon and pay for it myself.
another spark of self-hatred hit me like five minutes ago. i was trying to copy the dance for seventeen's clap (c;) and i couldn't see, i wasn't that far away and the quality was 1080 so like it frustrated me to the brink of tears and now i'm sitting here, literally on the brink of tears because i can't see, i'm fat and i complain about it on the internet.
i'm gonna go exercise my rage off i apologise for this senseless post but yk i'm not notifying my followers so it doesn't matter.