Eliott

So my parents hate that I drink Monsters so I switched to Alani’s….. Alani’s are worse for you than monsters but my parents have bought me Alani’s multiple times lol 
          

So currently I’m not allowed to feel shit because my sister is depressed. I can’t express anything because it could “trigger” her. The fuck? I’m not allowed to express my feelings so I don’t feel like shit because I’m depressed because my sister is depressed. Like what the fuck. I’m depressed too. I’m angry and about to cry all the time but I’m not allowed to feel those things because my sister feels that. I really hope yall are on my side because I don’t want to be an asshole

I just worked tickets at a basketball game. Worst experience for an autistic person. I’m very good at math. People gave me the money and I forgot how to do math. Also it’s weird when people make conversation with me. And some old people patted me on the back passing me after getting their ticket. I think it’s weird but I know it’s an old person thing. 

Found out today that my crush is supposed to be in my art class next semester. He’s in my current art class. Also I came to school today after being gone since November 19th (Don’t freak out my Thanksgiving break was 20th-2nd) I’ve been sick since the 2nd of December, still sick. I walk to my seat which is across from my crush and his friend is next to him. And his friend keeps bothering him by calling me his gf. 
          Also his friend told me I had cancer and then told my crush. Last I checked I don’t have cancer lol. I told him to stop spreading misinformation about me.

So I’ve been sick for a fucking week. Nausea and stomach aches, headaches too. Also my fucking knee and feet are jacked the fuck up so it hurts to fucking walk. I’m minding my own damn fucking business in my living room when my stupid ass brother walks in with something he got from my room. And when I tell him off for going into my room, which I’ve told him multiple times to not go into my fucking room, my mom yells at me. WHAT THE FUCK. It’s my damn room. Last time I checked the only person who’s allowed in it because somehow I drew the short fucking stick and have never had a room to myself but my 3 siblings have, is off at college. I’ve tried to get a lock for my door, which my parents took off because when I actually tried to have a little privacy they took my fucking door. When they finally gave it back they took the fucking lock. Excuse me for wanting to be away from my family who constantly disrespects and disregards my fucking feelings. When I try to say anything about it, I’m yelled at and told I’m being fucking emotional, while my brother, who’s been doing this for years mind you, takes shit from my room, he’s destroyed stuff too. And I’m the bad guy for yelling at him. What the fuck. I get yelled at for doing basically nothing, while my stupid fucking brother is failing middle school and getting no punishment what so ever. My parents say he’s grounded but nothing is done. 
          
          Sorry about this I’m just so fucking mad. And I’m afraid if I don’t tell someone about it I’ll fucking snap and go off on my family and that won’t end well because no one will get me a damn counselor. 

Wattpad always asks “What’s on your mind” I want to know what’s on Wattpad’s mind. Like Wattpad how’s it going with WEBTOON? Yall still going strong or….?

I’m in love with a man who is way to old for me. His actor is 49, but the man who I’m in love with, his age isn’t mention…. So I’ve been recently watching Ted Lasso, because I can. And Trent Crimm… the man he is. God I love him. If you don’t know who he is just look him up on tiktok 

My older sister is convinced I have a panic disorder and it’s not just anxiety lol. Bc she says it’s strange my anxiety is always acting up lol. I am getting a counselor, I just don’t know when lol. Life is just so fun. Also I have a project that was due last Tuesday but I wasn’t there and we’ve been on break, I have like none of it done haha.

Dude Spotify needs to release Spotify Wrapped soon. Also I just watched Dear Zoe, I cried pretty much the whole damn movie god  

I feel so bad. My crush has a twin brother (whom I have never spoken to or interacted with) and every time I see them in the hallways I’m like is that my crush or his brother :(. I’m sad too though bc the only class I have with this crush is a class I only have for this semester and worst…. HES A GRADE HIGHER THAN MINE!! But I was able to differentiate the two today so I was proud.