Babe I'm crying a lot, screaming out of my lungs that I'm so tired of this life, I want to give up and stop existing. It is hard to tell that I still don't want to lose you. In every morning when I wake you I fighting for my evil dark mind inside me, whisper to my ears " today's a good day to die, go somewhere and jump out now" or trying to live in a life that I don't want to live anymore, in a live scary to be different from the other. It so hard to live in this hopeless life :).