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It's been a year.
A whole year since you left us.That day has been repeating in my head,and I'm still trying to process just what the hell happened.Darkness that I felt that day never left me.It followed me through the whole year and I never felt so lonely,so miserable,so empty.
It's been a rough year.
I wish you never left us.
I still can't stop the tears whenever I think about you and hearing your voice is the hardest thing to do.
I feel guilt,guilt for not being able to do anything to save you and it's devastating.Maybe if we tried just a bit more you would've been still here,alive,breathing and smiling with that beautiful smile of yours.
Sometimes I wish you never stepped in this cruel world of fame,I wish they didn't take all good years from you,I wish you found love and peace you were seeking for and created a family you deserve,to love and cherish you forever.
But it's too late and you're gone.I can't hope anymore that someone will come and say "Hey,Jonghyun is alive!"
It's far too late.
Rest in peace love,you won't be forgotten.
I love you.