Rowan <3

Me: *hates my birth name and doesn't want my parents to call me it*
          
          Also me: *cringes whenever my dad calls me Rowan*

Welp, that didn't last long lol. Me and my boyfriend broke up because I literally just thought "I think I'd rather go back to being best friends" and he was like "Yeah, I agree" and we're chill lmao 

Ughhhh I want a girlfriendddddd and my boyfriend agreed to! We both want a girlfriend, but it's so difficult to find queer polyam girls our age that would be okay with dating 2 trans emos

I hate my voice sm.

Okay nvm I told the person I needed to tell! The thing I needed to tell you all is that me and my best friend Alex are actually more than best friends; we've been dating for a little over a week now. We're both questioning polyam also, so it's sort of an open relationship but not really, y'know? But yeah, random life update 

Ughhh I need to tell you guys something but I gotta tell it to someone else first so their feelings don't get hurt but it's so hardddd

I was talking to my grandma and I was telling her how I'm pansexual now instead of bisexual and she said "I always thought you'd end up gay of some sort." And I said "Why?" And she said "When you were in preschool, someone called you gay and you said thank you. And then you one time told me you wish you were a lesbian so you could date girls. You also said you wish you were a boy so you could kiss girls but you also wanted to kiss boys. You've been gay since birth honey." And now I'm just processing this.

Gay :point:

Bro I'm so autistic. I have a riding lesson at noon and I'm so excited for it that I woke up at 6:30, got dressed for the lesson at 8, and now I'm just bedrotting until I can leave. Also yes, I'm diagnosed autistic.

Guys I'm so happy rn. I ride horses, if you didn't know, and my trainer is just so amazing. I've been riding my heart horse, Jack, a ton recently and she keeps telling me I should lease him because we just do so well together. She says I'm getting really good and I could probably jump 3 feet with him soon!