So I wrote this in my notes yesterday
Right now.
I wanna strangle myself choke myself suffocate myself with a blanket I NEED MY MUSIC I wanna focus on math but mama said no music and I already have this feeling were I wanna peal off my own skin so it can breathe I am DEAD serious my mama left to get provisions and I’ve been singing to myself for the past ten minutes while doing math I wanna dunk my head in cold water right now so I can feel something I’m going insane I wanna bite into my skin until I bleed I think im a MEGA melomaniac like I wanna snap my whole body in half I feel uncomfortable and I wanna do that thing that zombies do in movies were they like crack all there bones and do all these contortion moves when there turning into zombies, I wanna be the girl in the beginning of bones and all that got her finger bit off and had to get Maren pulled off her, I wanna rip my eyes out like Teresa from maze runners said her mom did for relefe, I wanna scream like pearl did when the judges said she wasn’t gonna be one of the pretty girls dancing up on the screen, I wanna be a flower being violently ripped to pieces by a kindergartner, after writing this I’m actually feeling better:)