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YOU KNOW THAT MOMENT WHEN YOUR HEART DOES THE THING??
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          AAAAAADSASFIOHGYSDLDJAFIBKHKADFIBVHNAS

I hope you choke on your sanity.

Throw away the razor. Throw away the sharpener blades. Put away that knife, that lighter, the bleach, and everything else you use to hurt yourself. 
          
          Gone. You're pure now. 
          Sit for a moment. Realize you're alright. Realize that it's all gone and you don't have to harm yourself anymore. 
          You're alright now. You might feel a bit lost, but it'll pass. It's all going to be okay.

be kind to yourself today. there’s no use to plunge daggers into your already bleeding heart. there is no way to mask the pain besides just letting it stay and feel it out. because my friend, the only way out is through. so be kind to yourself today, be gentle, the only way to heal is by finding some sort of peace within the war inside your mind. find the peace, cling to it, and be kind to yourself. please.

-draws candy gore- 
          
          Bruh it's not death it's happiness 
          
          Nah it's definitely a death thing XD 
          
          Wow

HEY THERE, DARLING, DON'T BLINK YOUR LIFE AWAY
          THEY'LL BE WAITING HERE WISHING YOU'D HAVE STAYED 
          BUT IF YOU STAY HERE, FEARING THE UNKNOWN 
          YOU'LL REGRET NOT BEING ALOOONNEEE

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, YOU DESERVE CHOCOLATE AND ROSES AND LOTS OF HUGS. 
          THIS HAS BEEN A PSA, GOOD DAY.

I can't believe it. I actually look pretty good in a crop top.
          
          
          I think I might start wearing them.

And then I was gone~ 
          And then I wasn't. 
          
          I LIVEEEEEEEE
          
          Okay, kinda. But I'm up and Guess what! I'm updating Journal again, and going to update FMP! All or Nothing is still debatable, but things are looking up for the story. Luckily, I've found inspiration, be it from a different muse. Either way, I'm alive and mostly well. Things are looking up, I'm clear for out of bed movement, next appointment is thursday so I'll probably have clear for long distance crutching soon. HOWEVER. 
          
          I'm still stuck at home so somebody pls kidnap me so I'm not alone. 
          AHHH, but I'm on a new sort of run, still romantic, but a different view, I've found myself to be better at writing from an I/me perspective instead of a he/she/they perspective so I think I'll continue on with that. Ummmmm.. Yeah. Shoutout to my girl Yuki for helping me through some shit, Nexus too. 
          
          Yep, that's about it. See you next update, friendos. 
          
          But a little side story to solve your writing needs (also because I couldn't think of a way to continue this and it was too short to be a chapter): 
          The four walls start to close in even as my eyes open. The darkness is suffocating, knocking the air out of my lungs until I’m gasping for breath. Blood pours down my fingers as I bite them to suppress the screams lodged in my throat. Sobs shake my slender frame and the tears burn my cheeks. 
          I rock back and forth on my knees, trying to hold the terror at bay, but it has unleashed itself upon me. I want to cry out for help, but there is no one here except the darkness. I am alone.

So I broke my leg. Nothing happened, just a surgery for my hip. But I'm stuck at home so I have a lot of free time and I'll probably update some stuff.  I have a story in the works that'll get me sent to hell, I know that. The whole "All or Nothing" story that I posted about a while ago, the asexual and pansexual that move in together, I don't know if I'll actually update that. My inspiration on that one kinda left me, so I've been kinda dry on ideas. But my Poetry journal on here should get updated some more. "For My Princess" is probably going to be cancelled, no more updates. Lost inspiration for it, likely not gonna get that inspiration back. Might try my hand at a comedy story next, but I'm mostly skilled in romance, so it'll probably turn into a rom-com. I NEED INSPIRATION FOR SOMETHING THOUGH. 
          Seriously I'm all out of muse, i'm stuck at home and I've got artist's block, writer's block, and I am unable to move due to an injury. I can't do all that much with my two main hobbies blocked. I need help. And chocolate. But mostly help. If anyone has any ideas as to new stories, send em my way. I am bone-dry out of ideas. (Pun intended.)