Ouch, I forgot I used wattpad to text her too. I always keep finding ways I texted her and just ow. But on the plus side I've been doing better since the breakup. Stopped wearing the necklace, painfully. (i should have way sooner since she stopped a long time before me but i couldnt part with it.) But once again on the plus side, she also seems happy with the person shes been with. So thats good. I've been having trouble keeping my memories at bay lately so thats why ive been thinking about her a lot and why im posting this stupid thing. Just an easy way to put some emotions out. Don't get me wrong, im really happy with who im with rn too, just its hard to move on so quickly from a relationship that i thought was so good. I recently remembered her nickname for me and it caused a few hard memories and even though they are happy its just a little painful considering the circumstances I guess. At the end of the day, I messed things up, she left, now we both have relationships with other people that we are happy with. This isnt me upset or depressed, just wanted to write my feelings out a little bit. Kinda, getting it off my back in a way? Seeing as ive had a bit of time lately to just lay down and think.
I'm.. Happy. Odd I know. But I am, and god I hope she is and stays so. She deserves the best, which certainly wasn't me. But she made me realize in a sense, even if im not the best for her, I can be the best for myself, and hopefully someone else and have a good life. I'm done now, with a tear and a smile, I post this with hope that maybe someone doesnt see this as a rant or depressed post, but as something to think about in their own life and make the same resolution as me.
-Love you all, Isaac.