Soul_Jams

Hey, thanks for the follow :)

Anyone still alive wanna chat? I could use some loyal friends right about now

You ever just put everything you have into something and once you go and try to do something with it, it completely backfires or fails, and all you have left is the crumbling misery of all your failed ambitions?
          
          Yeah. I'm feeling that right about now.

I really need someone to talk to. I've got a lot going through my brain right now

Rain reminds me of myself. Falling and splattering, but then ending up everywhere instead of just the initial part it splattered at.
          
          So I guess the message is to be like rain and just get all over the place. Make sure errbody knows the heights you had to fall from. 

Got a question for my lovelies.
          
          Do you guys tolerate rumors and ill gotten statements? I'd hate to see yes as an answer to that question, but I understand that we aren't what society calls "normal", while the rest of the world claims they are. Why do we spend our lives trying to fit in and be like everyone else? Why not fight against the social norms and the status quo? Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying to riot, I'm just saying let's love ourselves as we are and stop caring about who would could be for a moment. Let's enjoy the us we are today and try to be the us we want to be tomorrow. And I hope, that for some of us, the people they want to be doesn't change from day to day.

Had a friend almost die today. Now she's blaming herself for the crazy guy breaking into her house and trying to kill her. Were it not for her friend, miraculously attacking the guy because he was distracted, she would possibly be dead instead of her attacker, who is dead.
          Why do we tend to attach ourselves to blame. This was nothing she wanted yet she says this was her doing. Why would she ever say that? Can someone explain it to me?

Asked a friend of mine to tell me how she really felt about me last night. No sugarcoating just brutal honesty. She did as I asked and I couldn't be more grateful for that. I heard every word, wasn't painful, but my heart did slow it's rhythm down quite a few times during her tirade. Im not upset, hurt, or mad. Truth is, she said everything I already knew. I haven't been the me I used to be, I haven't been as energetic or as fun an bubbly as I used to be. I had a child like innocence to me back then, where now I have a more realistic and pessimistic view of things. I could make up excuses about how it's because I'm getting older, or feeling different, but the truth is I'm just bitter over something I can't let go of. I was a bright kid, and now I'm a dull teenager, and I miss those days of my childhood ​where I just live and not care about consequences.
          
          This isn't a message to earn pity. It's more self reflection than anything. I just felt like if I bottled this up like I do everything else I'd probably explode once all my issues finally poured out at once. I was feeling like a spring that's been ready to bounce for a long time, so I wanted to just let go for a moment. I felt, as she told me, like a book, "Opened upon interest or whenever someone needs it, but closed and forgotten once I'd lost my use or once they'd found their footing again". I don't think I'm the only person feeling this way, so if you're feeling like this too, I'll be your book for you, instead of you feeling like you've been left behind.

It's weird how lost we can feel until someone comes along and totally understands what's going on. You could hate the world or hate yourself and the words from one person can make you love yourself or love that person so much that the world can get the hell out of the way. Honestly it's rough sometimes, but I guess if we just refuse to let life screw us over then we can all succeed in at least being self happy. I'd like to be an ear to those who have problems or need help at all. We've all got problems, but I'd like to think I can help relieve some pain if you'll allow me to help that is.

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