SoulistheLazy

im back
          kinda...

IM BACK

OMG IM SO SORRY IVE BEEN IN SCHOOL AND HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO GO ON WATTPAD LATELY. I HIPE YOU ALL FORGIVE ME.

Omg a girl i have five classes with got Covid and she sits next to me in all of them and since I have had Covid in the last 90 days and I’m vaccinated I think they are gonna send me back to class but me and 7 other ppl are stuck in the “exposed” room and it sucks!!!!

O haven’t cut in a while but I’m really tempted to cut even deeper to tonight.

 #ibroughtmyrazortoschoolandimgonnagointhebathroomtocutmywrists

Hi ppl.

you still here? floating on this spinning rock in space like the rest of us?

Hey. Uhhh it me being my suicidal self. I wish everyone just understood if they you know let me that their lives would be easier and I wouldn’t have to suffer anymore. I went to my house today and brought my cutting razor to my grandparents house and I’m so tempted to just let loose and cut the hell out of my wrists

So today someone told me I was like Dazai. They said because I want to die but don’t want it to hurt. I wasn’t sure how to respond. Then they went on to say how I wear bandages around my arms. Then they went in to say that some stuff I do people think Is hot. I wasn’t sure if that was a compliment or not. Either way I feel horrible about myself now. I’m so tempted to just swallow all my anti depressants  so yeah I’m not sure if I’ll be back tomorrow or any other day to come.