Jae

Well, it's been a while.
          
          So I think I'm finally ready to begin writing The Balance. This has been an ongoing project for 4-5 years that has never really left my mind. I have a lot of things written down and a lot of things in my head. I swear if one more thing comes up in my life that makes it hard to write, I'm gonna scream.

So I had started planning/writing The Balance again but my gallbladder had other plans. I was told by my doctor that I have gallstones and that’s why I’m in so much pain. So I’m not doing much of anything until I get that flipping surgery that my doctors keep delaying. 

So I’m doing online school and taking a creative writing class. To think that I was against taking the class just a few months ago. It is exactly what I thought it was. Hard. Because I’m a spontaneous writer and having requirements is difficult. 

Always feel like there are words bursting to come out of my fingers but something always blocks their way out. 

This loneliness is killing me. I need to learn how to be happy when I have no one there for me. 7th grade all over again but without the overdosing all the time.