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I'm 14 and I have only 4 friends, one of them I haven't seen in a while so it's 3 friends for me. As if i cared nobody likes me in my class two homophobc people and two i don't talk to often and the other is my 4th friend. I haven't been doing well. Voices scream in my head whenever i have an argument with someone i think of a away to kill or harm them i've tried everything to suppress it but it comes back i've tried everything else like other morbid thoughts every day i try to tell myself everything will be ok but i cant stop thinking about it i wanna kill myself or harm myself to let go of this pain i every year i have to go to a hospital just for a toumor i just wanna die and get the stress of my friends backs to the poin ive chosen when i wanna die i just wanna burn in a house or go where someone will love me everyday is shit! I can't contain myself i just wanna burn till im nothing or be cured from everything my anxiety is killing me even when i hear keys jingle i think my mom is going to leave me i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it i can't stand it