jay

hey so uh
          	im not dead (yet)
          	sorry for like
          	ditching yall again?
          	i'm not really sure if i'll log on again or anything but i just wanted to make a post to show you guys that yeah i'm alive somehow
          	i do feel really fucking bad for leaving all of a sudden again but like
          	here i am
          	hello
          	i guess if anyone wants to contact me ill update the links in my desc
          	so im
          	not really sure what to put here??
          	please don't come messaging me saying i'm a dick for well. being a dick bc trust me man, i kNOW
          	no im probably not going to message anyone on here bc i have major issues with anxiety and paranoia or whatever the fuck now and i am now fucking terrified of messaging people unless they message me first
          	anyways lets hope all my cursing isn't gonna get me banned or some shit bc i don't remember if that's allowed or not. oh well. i do not give a single shit about that.
          	so anyways
          	i guess? helo again
          	i still exist
          	please stand by while i silently revamp my profile so it's less cringe while in existential despair