I used to be a lost soul
That tried anything  
to make her feel whole
a pill to not feel
a drink to not think
Absolutely everything
including the kitchen sink
Through the years
A long and winding road
My soul looked like something 
Worn and borrowed
Years of pain and sorrow 
Can leave scars on a heavy heart
It feels like your whole world
is being torn apart 
Cruel words taking away your self worth 
I honestly tried my best
to leave this spinning earth 
But no matter how hard I tried
to get off the merry-go-round of life
 Still I would ask myself 
the same question, why?
Why do humans escape reality? 
Is it because
we can't deal with our own sanity  
why am I here?
Is it only for waves of sorrow and tears
in the darkness you'll find my truth
For a long time, I wasn't fine
I was walking a fine line
Between the shadows of death
The valleys of self destruction 
Many times I almost took my last breath 
It took almost dying
To finally wake up and see the light of day
To realise you need to feel
In order to see what's really real
in front of you 
It's not all deep in ocean blues
It also has hills of luscious green
With vibrant colours 
that no longer remain unseen
You just have to look  
open your eyes and see
That you have everything in life 
In order to be truly free
I just had to look inside myself 
to find the key
All along it was right in front of me 
Its just a relief
My song of the blues has been sung
And this journey of peace and joy 
Has only just begun 
Im just so glad 
before I could even walk I ran
Cause a road of experience
Is what makes our souls brilliant  
It's the finale of a dark chapter 
The endless war
that raged inside my head 
For so many years
For the first time 
It's not ringing in my ears
My mind is clear 
I now feels like I finally belong here
On this planet 
In this universe 
I am free
Because I finally stopped running 
from the pain within me
I changed my fate 
It was the day I surrendered to the universe 
And stopped the cycle of self hate.