★Vyxi-Stix★

Giggle shiggle wiggle. Heheheh alcohol. I have a headache fr- :^

Oh btw I'm obviously not romantic enough even though I ate six cookies outta they ass fr ((T_T))

IM GONNA ACTUALLY SMBAU FOR ONE AND LOCK IN ON MY RELATIONSHIP GNG!!!!!!! EHEHEHEHEHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHJJDJSNFDTJOSDHSNPJSK- I LOVE MAH WIFEEEEUUHHHH (Ragebaiting with wife bc of pronouns)

If I disappear, forget about me.

To everyone asking, yes, I am okay. I was having a mental episode yesterday and it was late at night. Plus, I was grieving and it doesn't mix well with anger. But yes, I am okay mentally and physically.

While you guys deal with your stuff, and telling me about yalls crazy days. I lie. I lie and say I'm alright when I'm actually bawling my eyes out over my cat, breathing in her scent and the smell of her flea collar while trying to figure out how to exactly let go. And how to fully move on from her.
          Then your cat of 15 years dies before her and you never saw him after October 19th. I'm laying in a puddle of tears and hardly anyone checks up on Vyx..! Im done with not being okay. I'll act fine. I'll bottle it up. Am I annoying? Yes. Im about ready to just be perfectly fine. "Little miss perfect" is what I need to be.
          "Oh you need a masters degree to get a job anywhere." "You need ____ to get this." "Do this" "Do that" "GO TO COLL-" no. Im FUCKING DONE. Im done with everyone. Everything. Ive already had people tell me to kms this week!
           I DONT WANNA BE HERE ANYMORE. GODDAMNIT I DONT WANNA BE HERE. I WANT TO LEAVE. I WANT TO LIVE. I WANT TO BREATHE. I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO SAY NO. I WANT TO MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS. I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS SHIMMY OF A HELL HOLE! Fuck. Like can I not catch a fucking break!? CAN A GIRL JUST BREATHE!? LIKE FUCK. LET ME HAVE FREEDOM AND PRIVACY! Im hanging on by a molecule of a thread. I give up. Im tapping out.

I WANT SOMEONE TO TOUCH MEEEE

Chapter ideas for chapter 11? I accidentally deleted the ENTIRE thing. So imma do a rewrite!..... Yay. ;-;

IM GONNA FUCKING ABSTRACT I SWEAR TO CELESTIA I AM. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOO

Dude. I'm gonna abstract because WHY- AUGHHH-
          
          (Listen to: Self Control by Mike Geno)
          
          I'm gonna make another chapter on the bus!
          
          "I just wanna find my way back home, and not lose my mind in self control" -Pomni in the song (shh idk if that's the lyrics. Fix it if I'm wrong TwT)