To my Dear Beautiful Sheepies,
Been awhile hasn’t it? I want to start this off by saying how sorry I am for disappearing for over a year. I never wanted things to turn out this way. This year has been a hard one. More mentally and emotinally than anything else. I have been depressed beyond words. I have no significant other. My friends live in town over two hours away. I work a job where the CEO of the company bullies me, and degrades me everyday. I work never 60-65 hr weeks. My brother has been the spotlight of the family with four amazing kids and girlfriend that I don’t usually speak up on what I’m thinking bc I don’t want to bring people down. I’m on high doses of medication that have zapped me of every emotion. When I’m home I’ve only had the energy to clean the house and sleep. My writing room became a junk pile instead of a sanctuary. I have grieved losing the love of writing due to my struggles. I have missed each and every one of you. I hope to get back to writing bc despite all the that has piled up, Eddie has still been my light at the end of the tunnel. I’ve been on tumblr mostly these days, reading on there bc I didnt feel as guilty reading on there. I hope you all are healthy, thriving, safe, and most of all I hope you’re happy. I love you always. Don’t be mean and scary♥️
