Spica3151

Hey guys…
          So it’s been a year. 
          Shits been real. 
          And uh, I probably won’t be really back. 
          I’ve been having a lot of health problems (mental and physical). And yeah, my anxiety is better, but otherwise, my depression is shit, my ptsd has been shit, my bpd has been shit, my ed and body dysmorphia has been shit (how many times can you say shit at once?). And I’ve been experiencing ‘gift kid fall’. Also just family issues have been shit (at least I’m bonding with my siblings now, even if it’s trauma bonding). It’s been hard because I almost lost someone really close to me to suicide and I have someone I care about be very toxic and kinda take advantage of that knowledge.  I’ll probably still be afk for a while and not sure if I’ll ever really come back.  
          Just a heads up.

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Bro 
          Why does mistborn keep doing this to me?
          THERE A MISTBORN DECK BUILDING GAME! 
          So of course I’m buying

Tw: mention of sh in this
          This is just a cool detail I noticed in a book today. 
          
          
          I just realized something about Mistborn: Final Empire by Brandon Sanderson.
          The character with scars on his arm and wrists is considered to be the bravest, and most powerful (except Lord Ruler and maybe Vin) character in the book.
          Kelsier is THE Survivor of the Pits of Hathsin, he got his scars from having to mine (yes, like for ores) with his bare arms. But he’s considered strong and a hero among the skaa for his scars. I’m not sure of Brandon made this intentional, but I just love this. It can even convey the Pits of Hathsin as almost a metaphor. And I love the fact that the strongest character (again, besides Lord Ruler) has scars on his arms, and he’s praised for surviving that. 
          Plus, Kelsier is such a lovable and great character. 
          Anyway, this was just a detail I just thought of today, a reminder that some of the strongest people, have scars on their arms. 
          
          Btw, I’m not promoting sh or anything. I just know I might get accused of it. But just as someone who was so close, if I wasn’t so guarded, I just want to bring this up to those who might find this helpful, or even more self love out of this.

Bro, I’m having an identity crisis. For the longest time I’ve thought I’m aroace. But now, thinking back, I’m pretty sure I’ve just been demisexual. Cause now Im getting to know a person and I’m here like “what is this feeling, so sudden and new?”(wicked anyone?) So I think I’ve actually developed my first crush
          
          Cause I’m literally living in a flipping slow burn romance book
          
          
          Like, I’m pretty sure everything that’s happened has been written before. 
          
          It’s like, “oh we’re friends. Oh we have a lot in common. Oh we’re hanging out a lot. Oh, now they’re picking me up and like hugging me. “ and my friends are screaming at me to date them already
          
          But yeah. It’s been fun and interesting. I finally understand somewhat of those corny love songs. 
          
          It’s kinda crazy for me

GUYS I JUST HAD A DREAM THAT I THINK IM GOING TO WRITE!!! I LOVE THOSE DREAMS

holy crap
          I just realized I have 9 work
          and 15 DRAFTS!!!!!
          
          peak ADHD here

Bro
          Guys
          I apparently made the 5 billionth search today. And I’m a lucky winner 
          It says I have 15 minutes. 
          See, I just don’t freaking trust that. 
          Soooooo
          I’m just gonna leave it be 
          I don’t need another Samsung phone anyway

I have three exams tomorrow 
          I’m gonna crash out

Just three more days of actual school… and then I have like four useless days of field trips 
          *bangs head against wall*