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i’m prepared to be devastated by you

how small my place must have been in your heart for you to do that to me

how dare i crave connection when all i can do is offer silence

i’ve tried so hard to be the glue but i’m not sticky enough

i did not think i could feel like that again, liquid desire pooling in my stomach, heart fluttering and cheeks flushed, those soft trails of fingertips on my hands almost had me undone, i couldn’t even focus on the movie, and he smelled so fucking good, so so good

id be so lost with you Dorothea, always a mind reader, a natural scene stealer

THIS MUST BE MY DREAM
          WIDE AWAKE BEFORE I FOUND YOU
          I CANT WAIT FOR YOU, BOY

it’s always been hard to look you right in the eyes, it feels like you see and hear everything im thinking, im sorry for forever averting my gaze but you’re my truest friend and i dont know where to put all this love it feels like it stretches across time and a vast distance and for just these past couple days it felt like it balled up in my chest, no longer stretched thin but whole and im sorry for making our goodbye short but i dont not think i could bear it if i stayed, thank you for seeing me and showing me your city, thank you for being there for me and laughing till my cheeks hurt, thank you for knowing me like no other, thank you for biting me even though it was so fucking irritating, youre just as pretty as those tulips in chicago

say what you want, but say it like you mean it, with your fists for once, a long Cold War

i have so much regret looking back i wish i could reinvent time to reinvent myself and make a million different choices how do i go back from stopping it and stopping myself and hoping i turn into someone else