@SpringWolf12 Aw, I'm sorry :( I'm sure as you grow into adulthood you will become an awesome person! :)
This is relatable, except I don't really care for finding love or getting married, so i just state matter-of-factly that I ain't ever getting married cause I'm too weird and can't converse well at all and i don't trust people like i used to even though i used to not fully trust anyway. I had trust in the people closest to me but that was broken by my closest friend and so i doubted my others and basically rid myself of friends because i can't trust. So yeah, that's my story, sorry, XD. I do relate to you, except the part where you want love. I do have to say that, although it's not very fun, you get to grow through the experience of "friends" and you should actually be able to learn from the individual people and see different personalities and such through that :)