Naznin Sultana

How are u doing phi?

Okay. It might be little silly but do think about it once. So, as you said after this book you'll write GemFot fic also F4 cp one, right. 
          Also you said you might give chance to writting another fanfic of Ppw. I get this thought very randomly few days ago. I tried not to share with you (as it's silly, but anyway) I really want you to give it a try— Ppw fanfic where Pond is Serial killar and Phuwin is detective solving his case.
          
          Pond is very much aware about detective Phuwin and kinda obsessed with him. It's Slow burn, full of tension, chemistry is chemistry-ing. 
          Yk I get this thought very randomly and I can imagine them in this way too perfectly.
          
          Also, Take care of yourself, love. Your health matter to us more then anything. We love you! ෆ⁠╹⁠ ⁠.̮⁠ ⁠╹⁠ෆ

Phi... just randomly remembered ur sleep paralysis and the things u told me about ur painting... how r things now? 
          Also, I know u replied to my last few texts but apparently Wattpad hates me and I can't see them

@Piiiu11111 Well did I said we have 11 sub for Admission right? So other that our main must sub we have those 3 sub too. And for me that GK(General knowledge) is sooooo hard..... And we had a major protest (Grn-Z protest) in my country that time, it was included too. And I have a thing — I can't memorize things theoretically easily. I have to understand everything practically. Like everything Phy, Che, Bio — practically with example. So for GK of course nothing like that. So I forget GK easily too. I don't remember a thing... It was also hard for me so I understand... 

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Love u too. I love too talk to u too my Bean... It’s like talking to my other sister too me... I can't tell this feeling. It’s so good. ❤️❤️... That time when I told u about my nightmares and sleep paralysis.. i felt so light. I want to give u that lightness too... ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@Piiiu11111 It happens Bean. I'm more close to my Papa than Ammu. And Ammu is close to my sister. And yes, that younger one gets it easy. More because they say u struggle, they didn't want to make their other child struggle too. Our parents were young too. They were learning too how to be better parents for us. And of course, they won't let their child suffer. I get this part. I say my sister get away with things and get things easy with something that I struggled or I got punished for. But I'm glad that my parents don't scold her like they did to me. I don't want my sister feel what I felt. She gets punishment too, when it's important, I punish her too when it’s for lessons. But also, I'm her safe space too when she feel the world is unfair. 
          But still both of us is close to both our parents. Cause we know what they did made this version of us. And we don't want the otherwise version. This is the best for us.
          
          I understand u Bean. I completely understand u. Cause I have seen my friends like this too. And they say the same things "we have accepted this long ago". Maube u have. Maybe it’s just ur mind playing survive game. I don’t know that part. But I want u to know — family doesn’t confine in 4 walls only.... It’s sometimes the closest people to u. U said, u are a daday's girl — be with him always. He is a surgeon. So maybe when he is tired, he find home in u. Maybe he knows u are tired too so he brings u happiness in little forms. Don't miss them. Talk with him more like u do, u both will be happy.  
          
          (I just realised I said "Ammu". That's Mom in my language.)

@Piiiu11111 When u have a brother, it happens. They kinda change overnight and u get stuck in one point and think what happened.... I have same age 4 cousin and one of them got distanced. (Thought most of our cousins are pretty close).... 
          I don't think you did anything wrong by trying to talk to him, care about him, or be there for him. You were being a sister.
          And even if things aren't good between you two now, nobody can take away all those years where you practically helped raise him.
          Sending you a giant hug. 

@Piiiu11111 Don't u feel left out na.... We are here for u. I'm always here.. I feel really good (the best if u say) when I talk with u. Love u bean. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@Piiiu11111 I actually don't know how to feel. Cause for me, my family is always here no matter what. 
          My mom is housewife so, she is been there for me always. My sister doesn’t know anything without me. If I'm away for vacation or spending time else where, she just kills my mom with questions about me... "When she is coming, where she is, why she ain't home yet" like that... Always. And my Papa is Everything to me. Like I'm still a kid to him (I intend to be one forever). I do with mom too but with Papa I have another bond — like a kid one. He is a defence person. Works for Navy. So, by afternoon, he comes home. But for past two years, he is in different town (he got transfer) and we didn’t shift cause we have been in this town for 20 years and Papa will be in that town for only three years (two years already passed), than he will get back. So for this short time, we didn’t shift. So, the past two years we have been face calling everyday, whenever we get time. Five times a day sometimes. And we talk a lot, not one person, we talk like a whole family in one call.
          
          And that's what bothering me. I have never been away from my family. But now for my study I have to be in another town which is 12 hours journey from home, whole five years. How I'm gonna do that? I don't know. It’s different. It’s not fear but..... something.. 
          
          I guess that's the only reason, I'm an introvert. I talk a lot with my family and spend a lot of time. So talking with outside people, doesn’t really get me. They doen't get me. 

@Piiiu11111 Wooowww.... That.. sound scary for me. You are doing really really really great. Keep up bean. You will do your best.