Samantha

HAPPY CHAEWON DAY!!

I woke up because of a damn Earthquake  Goodmorning i guess.

I graduated today :D

Hindi ba pwedeng ako naman? Ptangina bakit lagi nalang akong patapon?? Hindi pa ba sapat yung nabibigay ko? Konti nalang patayin ko na sarili ko sa kakasunod sa mga gusto nyo.
          
          "Sam dapat mag first ka"
          
          "Second lang? Ay Wala na."
          
          "Bakit naging bobo ka? Second lang? Diba dapat first?"
          
          But when my sister got first, what were your reactions?
          
          "Wow! Galing naman ng baby ko!"
          
          "Congratulations~ galing mo"
          
          "Galing ah, proud si mama"
          
          See the difference? Never expect anything to me from now on. I'm fucking tired.

I was already doing fine. Now I'm going downhill again.

Now i understand. Being second really isn't enough.

Congratulations self. You did very well and I'm very proud of you<3

What a great way to end my Monday.

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          Wow. Not even a single congratulations? Or you did well? Or I'm proud of you? Damn, that hit me deep.
          
          Are we really gonna stay in this page where if you aren't the first, you're noting?
          
          What a fucking Bullshit.
          
           You work your ass off for noting? You study until you can't even rest and faint all of a sudden. Studying even when you're sick. Throwing up shits and still study like noting's wrong. Aren't you tired? Sam? At this point I'm not even existing to them anymore. I didn't receive even a single smile. I studied thinking it will make you happy, proud but why did noting work? Why am i ignored all the time?
          
          Fucking shit.

Damn i feel like shit