StabbeyRoad_358

Maybe if I smile enough
          Ill get away with giving up
          I’ll move across the city just to judge myself
          Like just as much as I do when I’m sitting here
          I miss my friends
          They disappeared
          I haven’t seen them in 2 years
          God what am I doing here??
          -Gracie abrams

Oh my god today I got to see one of my best friends who I haven’t seen in almost a month
          He hugged me so many times
          He let me be clingy
          And he platonically kissed me
          
          And oh my god
          I really needed that

Oh my god I miss them so bad I miss them so so bad I miss how they hugged me and they gave the best hugs and I miss how they would call me kiddo and honey and hun and I miss seeing them and hearing them laugh and texting them will just make them hate me I texted them 10 days ago but oh my god I miss them so so so fucking bad

What the fuck
          Everyone, EVERYONE is like “trust your parents! If you tell them you’re struggling they’ll help.” And what the FUCK?? WHY THE HELL HAVE I GOTTEN SO GOOD AT HIDING SHIT. BECAUSE OF THEM.
          im so tired
          Earlier today I needed a five minute break, I spent all day around people and DIDNT THINK THAT WAS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR
          I GUESS I FUCKING THOUGHT WRONG
          My whole family practically ganged up on me and then got a bit pissed when I got annoyed and overwhelmed??
          AND WHAT THE FUCK?
          LATER I WAS VENTING TO MY DAD ABOUT HOW THAT KINDA PISSED ME OFF. and he just got mad. He didn’t help. No comfort either just ANGER AND DEFENSIVENESS. 
          So there I’ve said it all
          This is why I don’t tell them things. They just make it worse, make me worse. And I’m almost 20 days clean and I don’t know if I’m gonna keep that.
          Im just so tired and done honestly
          
          Fuck no one’s probably even going to read this I don’t know why im doing this.
          And I swear to anything, if someone reports this right now, of all times…

I am back :)

Going out of town again, be back in like a week and a half

Hey so for anyone who likes the game strands I made my own but it’s roller derby themed >:3
          
          https://strandsgame.net/game/?id=1261

I want a hug.
          I want a big hug.
          I don’t know why.
          It’s stupid.
          I just want a hug.
          I like hugs.
          Hugs are nice.
          They feel safe.
          And warm.
          And comfortable.
          I just want a hug.

Im back, but my parents might have found my wattpad accout.
          Im a completely different person on here.
          
          On a semi-related note, sloane tavish is my comfort character

Hey so im going camping im gonna be dead for a week bye gang