please leave me alone. I don't talk to evan anymore. I unfollowed her on everything. I feel bad, I really do, but I wasn't ready for a relationship. I apologize for how I treated her dearly. she means a lot to me, and I never wanted her to see me upset or angry. I didn't want to hurt her. I wanted to protect that precious girl with my life. and yes, I did attempt suicide. I hadn't called anyone except my friend liam that day, and that was before the meds kicked in. I do not want any kind of contact with her despite blocking and dropling many people in fear of losing her. I've had literal dreams of getting payback on everyone who had wronged her. I dont know how to end this message, but I am sincerely sorry for how I treated her and potential damages to her mental health. I failed as a boyfriend, and this is me outright admitting it. ensure that lovely girl has a good life, and have a great day.
