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OH MY GOD
          I just read through my conversations for old times sake and saw a few mentions of my wattpad bio. Mind you I wrote this when I was in grade 8 (2016/2017 thereabout)
          
          So I decide to go over there and check it and LAAD HAVE MERCYYYY!!! What was going on with meeeeee.
          
          There were some stuff that were out of pocket and funny and just genuinely showcased my personality but what really gets me is the self deprecation and depression feeding comments 
          
          "People like you more if your darkness is tinted pink"!?!??!?!?! HUHHHHH!?!??!
          "Degrade yourself while laughing it makes others FEEL GOODDD!??!?!?!""?!??!?! WHAT TF EVEN IS THAT WOIIIII
          
          And then I'm just randomly calling myself annoying and saying I have no life like Jeeeezzzz, get a grip. Honestly I know it was a time that I was really struggling with my depression and s**** ideation and I've just recently come terms with the fact that self deprecating jokes aren't funny and feeding my sadness isn't helpful but god know. It's so weird seeing reflections of your old self when you've started to change for the better. Part of me doesn't want to change it because it serves as a reminder of how far I've come (still have the crippling anxiety tho)
          
          FOR ANYONE GOING THROUGH SUICIDAL IDEATION, DEPRESSION, SELF ESTEEM ISSUES OR JUST HARD TIMES, KNOW THAT IT GETS BETTER AND I AM SO SO SO PROUD OF YOU FOR EVEN BEING HERE RIGHT NOW. It may not get better tomorrow or the day, week, month after that but trust me, your healing is worth fighting for, waiting for and loving for. You deserve love, even if you aren't currently in a place where you can give it to yourself freely♡

I- your a very chaotic person I like it! 

Some bxb recommendations please

Go stream How You Like That by BLACKPINK on YouTube pleaseee

@Beautifulsins946.... explain this right now!?!? Nate was so good to all of us :((((

SPOILER ALERT
          
          So I was reading this great book called The Letter I Wrote To Levi, right? And I have this weird thing where sometimes I feel the compelling need to stop reading a book where I am and then just read it from the end back to the point where i was and I've never regretted it more in my life.
          
          Like I'm grieving for a character that i didn't even allow myself to know fully. What. I've been sitting here for 14 minutes and I don't know what to do...

BxB book suggestions?

Sighhhh... so I grew out my nails all quarantine but one broke of while I was washing the dishes and I didn't realize until just now. 2 whole centimeters of free edge gone:(
          

@Aubrey-Faith oh my gosh! I feel so honoured . Of course I liked it, matter of fact,  I LOVED IT. Both of them are coming to an end and I'm so sad But don't worry,  I'm adamantly waiting for the sequels

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