raerae

ITS SO OVER FOR ME.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Large gap as a WARNING 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Maybe its the stress of the last few days adding up with the normal stress and the UPCOMING stress but I.... have the veeeeery weird urge to write it in to Hexad that someone gets cucked...
          
          NOW. PAUSE. UM 
          THATS WEIRD NO MATTER WHAT, IM AWARE 
          
          I JUST. IM FUCKING TIRED I DONT KNOW I THINK IT'D BE FUNNY

hehe new month
          
          so first up the show went very very well actually !! one of my teachers now only refers to me as "the actress"
          
          and i gotsa be for realisies.... iiiiiii have noooot been writing at all 
          
          
          IVE BEEN TOO BUSY PLAYING DANDYS WORLD AT ALL HOURS OF THE DAY  im not even joking this game has an actual CHOKEHOLD on me 
          
          i am going to write this weekend and i SWEAR ON MY LIFE i will get the bd story posted fr.... FOR REAL.... I PROMISE....
          
          uhh but first im going to sleep becuz when the hell did it become five in the morning 

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PLAY. UMM FORGOT TO MENTION IM AN ACTOR THIS TIME
          IM FREAKED OUT 
          THEY PUT MAKEUP ON ME ??!?!?!? 
          IM STARTING TO REGRET THIS A LITTLE BIT 
          
          (we have to do this again tomorrow)

IM COOKED.... I MEANT TO POST THE BD STORY ON MY SECOND ACCOUNT YESTERDAY... BUT I CANT C&P IT OVER BECAUSE IM NOT HOME AND I LEFT MY COMPUTER CHARGER... 
          
          I COULD PASTE IT BUT IT WONT COPY THE ITALICS AND IM JUST RE-ITALICISING ALLAT ON THE PHONE ☠️☠️
          
          I KNOW IM LIKE TWO MONTHS LATE ON THAT PROMISE BUT I SWEAR IVE BEEN WORKING 

I.... uh..... SPENT OVER 130 DOLLARS YESTERDAY....
          
          I WENT TO HOT TOPIC INTENDING TO SPEND $30 OR LESS, WENT IN WITH 60 SUMN DOLLARS... WALKED OUT HAVING SPENT ABOUT 100. 
          
          WHAT. 
          
          it was an outing with friends and i did spend money elsewhere... but... im BROKE broke now 

THEYRE PLAYING PINK PONY CLUB IN THE DENTISTS OFFICE

i might rewrite hexad AGAIN.... one ao3 comment made me aware of the HUGE plot hole where the dursleys "arent aware" that harrys biologically a girl. and i somehow NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT??? and i have a good idea as to how i can remedy this, but i really just want to rewrite hexad as a whole because that got me thinking of OTHER plot holes that i sadly decided not to fix because itd cause MORE plot holes if i only fixed those but now i really want to just rewrite hexad entirely
          
          but the only reason im hesitant on this is cuz itll be like.... the FOURTH time....

GOOOOOOOOD im so sick of having friends 
          first day back after spring break and the drama is in FULL SWING???? 
          
          the one guy who is the source of ALL the drama is joining the play, so not only do we have to deal with the one girl talking about him all the time, we have to ACT with him and act FRIENDLY with him
          the girl doesnt even want to acknowledge hes a bad influence because theyre close and she KNOWS hes bad & "knows when to leave" .... im not gonna lie no she doesnt 
          and she apparently doesnt consider us friends anymore because hes convinced her that the BAD INFLUENCES are better friends?? (and im petty so one of them is in FOUNDATIONS OF ALGEBRA and PREGNANT FOR THE 2ND TIME THIS SCHOOL YEAR???)
          and i dont even want to GET into the other half of the drama that the girl doesnt want to bring up for whatever reason
          
          and i just gotta ask..... how do you end up so hated to the point that people who know the bare MINIMUM about you HATE UR GUTS???? 
          
          im going crazy 
          is it SO impossible to have a friend group that is not UTTER DRAMA???

Do you ever have to draw a female version of a character because you can't draw men 
          
          Yeah so i was drawing a human sonic because i cant draw hedgehogs either (YES IM THAT DEEP IN THE RABBIT HOLE ☠️) and when my friend realised she literally went like "oh. anyways make her boobs bigger every female sonic has big boobs" WHAT THE FUCK??!?!?
          
          I ACTUALLY DONT KNOW WHATS CRAZIER THE FACT I KNOW SHES RIGHT OR THE FACT SHE SAID THAT 

i keep imagining a dream(NOT HAVING IT THO??) where i had a test for a class and i didnt know so i failed and im tied to a desk and getting bullied by numbers??? But for some reason i only imagine it as a math test.... like im pretty sure every time i get that thought its not always a math test. like the last two times it wasnt a math test and i got that thought today too and im pretty sure i dont have a math test tomorrow ??? it was only a math test like once.... that one time being the first time it happened
          
          hope i dont have to take a math test tomorrow because i also take my spanish test tomorrow