Hey can I ask you a question?
It's kindav personal and triggering but I don't know anymore...
I need help but I don't have anyone and I don't know. I need the pain to go away but I don't want to necessary kill myself but I need it to go away. I don't have anyone and I just went to my mom but that made it worse.
Um I was curious about cutting, you wrote about it and I just was wondering if you knew if it helped at all. I know it wouldn't fix anything but at the moment I need some relief/ reprieve from the pain. I've been in a bad spot before- many times actually but I can't keep fighting this losing battle without something to help. I'm sorry I don't want to be a bother but right you seemed to be the only person I can even relate to I guess. The one shot, maybe I read to much into it- I don't know...
I'm at the bottom of the barrel with my strength and I need something, I don't know what.
I'm sorry, ignore this I guess, I just I don't want to give up just yet I guess after fighting for so long I don't want my pain to be a waste.
I guess I'm trying to get someone to notice me- I just don't know who? Again I'm sorry
(Thought to send this to someone but I don't want to be a bother, it's not fair to that individual so I'll leave this here.)
Please note; I've done therapy, I've been on several medications, and yes I have talked to my parents... None of this has helped. If you want to know more I'll tell because I need to vent I guess. I don't expect anything from this, I just needed to get it out there because I can't hold it in anymore.
Ever your lover,
LK