StarGazedYoongs
I don't usually post on the conversations tag but I feel this is more private then writing in my vent book, lately everything has slipped out of my grasp, my eating habits, my mind, the people I love and care for, the way I view myself, the world seems too have lost its colour I've gone as far as turning of my phone to avoid everyone else's issues but I feel the guilt building up as I put myself in a healing situation, I've tried to stay positive for those who care but slowly the conversations become shorter and uncomfortable I've lost contact with friends and slowly drifting apart from family, everyone seems to be moving on but I'm stuck, they find new people find excuses and eventually leave friends become strangers and family become acquaintances, I'm not gonna move because everyone else is so ahead there's no point to even try catching up, I'm fading out of there lives and I tried to latch on and catch up but they only got faster.
Kiwi6712
@BTSxTiff babe ik it's been a little while, and idk how much this will help. But you are not alone. I catch myself wondering where everyone went, when really it's just that I haven't moved on. Tbh the realization is scarier then when it's actually happening, i guess ignorance really is bliss. It will get better eventually, because things go up and down. It might be hard to remember your happiest times without at least a few negative things coloring your view, but if you could fall so far from a moment that felt so perfect, you can also climb back up. You might think, oh, but now the memories I loved the most even seem less special, that will happen to these feelings eventually. The feeling of detachment, being powerless, that will all go away. Life is a series of losses and gains, and you never know what's going to come next, but if you push through the bad it will eventually change for the better.
