☆Sirius☆

I'm trying to recover from sh so I gave my friend my main sharps to get rid of for me and I was trying to throw away some of my older sharps (obviously wrapping them up for safety of anyone/anything to touch them) and I managed to slice open my finger and it hurts so bad
          
          Think paper cut but 5 times deeper, sobbing 

I promise I'll update soon I swear I'm working on it, I have a hyunlix draft I've almost finished but I kinda fell out of the fandom for a few months and I'm struggling a lot mentally but I should be back to business soon (I think, I hope)

So I've already lost three friends because of the elections, I can't do this anymore I know there will be more I'll lose to 

Bro is single against
          
          Bro is me I am bro

I went offline for like two weeks and came back to 100+ notifs wtf
          
          But anyways, major life update (tw for sh and ed mentions)
          
          
          I have a boyfriend, he's great I love him
          
          I'm in recovery for my ed 
          
          But I did almost end up in a&e due to my sh because I've become extremely dependent and went way to deep (sorted it out tho and I'm fine)
          
          I'm getting help from school to deal with my anxiety and sh
          
          Probably not gonna write for another while just cause I need to get my life together before writing constantly 

I have homework due tomorrow which i couldn't finish cause I needed help from the teacher but I'm sick so wasn't at school, I'm gonna get detention 
          
          Anyways on a brighter note me and my sister bought a puppy her name is Maggie, she's adorable and a northerner (we got her from up north)

Start school tomorrow 

Kinda wanna ask him out but I don't want to lose him 
          
          Like we flirt constantly, he walks me home, he kisses me goodbye, he let's me sit in his lap and a bunch of other stuff but at the same time it might just be him flirting platonically and I'm reading the social cues wrong

People be complaining about 'back to school clothes' but they don't know the pain of having school uniform that's too expensive to buy more than once a year but your mother forces you to get your exact size cause it 'shows off your body' so you grow out of it within two months
          
          Like if you don't got uniform you can get clothes at the charity shop or something but if you do you gotta spend like 40 quid on shirts trousers and skirts alone and then you gotta think if the 20 - 30 quid for a school jumper and another 40 for a blazer, and don't get me started on PE kit that you gotta wear even if you physically can't do pe unless you wanna get detention 

Mfs really be having a tantrum because I post stuff where my scars + MOSTLY HEALED sh are visible, like I put trigger warnings as well (this WhatsApp statuses + tiktok btw) like tf you want me to do about it? I'm not spending time to censor it because you don't like it and refuse to acknowledge the warning I gave. Like oh no you see my scars for less than ten seconds, I have to see them everyday for the rest of my life, suck it up you had the chance to not look when I gave a trigger warning