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Today's chapter will be a little late because I was out watching Minions and I didn't get time to write ✨

I'm at chapter 8 of my Hyunchanho story, one chapter published each day - which is surprising and soooo rewarding after taking a break from writing for a whole month. The main reason I took this break was cuz I got stuck with perfectionism and rules and all that, something that I was less conscious of when I wrote my first skz Hyunlix books.  Also depression ig. Anyways, if you're not reading my Hyunchanho book yet, I suggest you check it out hehe ✨

Hello lovelies!! New Hyunchanho story up and about~ Please check it out and lemme know what you think!! 
          
          PS: I might be discontinuing the Hyunlixho story, it has become too fluffy for me to add angst. 

Will not be updating my story for.... at least a month or two. Mental health break.

Honestly I think I have depression, but not like- extreme- I don't know how to explain it. It's like sometimes my brain just says "what's the point?" and I stay in one place for hours doing nothing that counts as something... And yk what, I low-key want to blame that for the reason I'm not publishing my books often and why I feel like everything I do is bland and boring. I also blame AI a little cuz it's affected how I see my fictional work. Not that I'm mad at anything or complaining, I'm numb- and it's better than being happy all the time because then I wonder what I did to deserve happiness and if something is gonna happen and steal the moment away. I consider myself a strong person, I don't let my thoughts take control of me often, but sometimes I just want to curl up and suffer and not think about how scary everything is.

I'm reading the Cruel Prince because so many Stays told me that Hyunjin biased Stays would like it.........
          
          
          
          I am low-key emotional that the book will eventually end cuz CARDEN SKSJDJBDJAAKNABSBSBS
          
          
          AnyGays, I am planning to write an og work soon... Obviously I won't publish it here cuz that feels like betrayal to my beautiful Hyunjin fanfics

I have four different story ideas in my drafts and one I'm publishing rn, I have no idea which one to focus on first lmao- the one I'm publishing rn is stuck at a chapter and the other stories look more fun...

Rant time, read if you're free tbh  ಥ⁠_⁠ಥ
          
          Who was gonna tell me how difficult it is to move from writing fanfiction to writing a normal book? I swear to God wdym angst is too much and the plot needs more plot AND I HAVE TO EXPLAIN WHAT THE CHARACTERS LOOK LIKE? I have this cool idea for a story but just the thought that I have to make people love the character before I start hurting the character is taking me out- everyone who reads fanfics already love their characters... 
          
          WTF DO I NAME THE STORY, WHY DID I USE ALL THE GOOD NAMES FOR MY FANFICS?
          
          And omg why does my brain keep trying to make a fantasy plot WHEN I'M A ROMANCE + ANGST WRITER, I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE!
          
          And then when I finally settle on a plot, it starts feeling so cliche and cringe, why did I even start writing a straight couple I should have written a bl... Ugh... At first I thought of writing a gl but that whole plot went out the window cuz of a male character that was an absolute cutie patootie that I had to keep... I EVEN MADE FAN ART OF THE STRAIGHT COUPLE???
          
          I started drawing Hyunjin because I used to suck at drawing men.
          
          GUESS WHO CAN DRAW MEN NOW BUT NOT WOMEN?????? WHY DOES MY MALE CHARACTER HAVE HYUNJIN'S EYES. I'M CRASHING OUT I HATE THIS.
          
          Anyways, should I start posting my Hyunlix story or should I wait for my Italian Escape story to get completed? I should probably wait.
          
          Anyways love y'all and free hugs to whoever read this far ✨

I feel like writing a Minchan story, chat how am I willing to write stories that don't involve Hyunjin now? I'm evolving as an ot8 now ✨ Love it... Also, I'm writing a Hyunlix story that's mostly Felix centric that I might start posting if y'all are bored. Otherwise dw, I'm still working on the Italian Escape story ✨ 
          
          Love y'all (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

Can someone tell me how many chapters they see of my Italian Escape book? I swear the third chapter keeps showing up as a draft and I've published it TWICE- (⁠ノ⁠T⁠＿⁠T⁠)⁠ノ⁠ ⁠＾⁠┻⁠━⁠┻