Hey there :) I found your account through the LGBTQ account.
I am also Genderfluid. It can be very confusing to figure out what's going on with your gender... one day I feel female, another time I feel male.
Along with that, I happen to be Christian. I understand the struggles of believing that God will not forgive you for this. Unfortunately, it is not something we purposely chose, so hopefully He will understand.
If you ever need to talk to me, I'm always here :) My name is Ash, by the way <3