Starrari

Bye don’t miss me MWAH MWAH

Starrari

I never wanted to announce it like this but if I say this to ppl irl then they’ll just say it’s a phase it’ll pass …ARE U STUPID ITS NOT A PHASE IDIOT
          	  and I’m also scared cuz u know abt the five acc incident ppl lying about their stuff and all the other drama happening I just wanted to leave without saying anything butttt I’m not that type person I always say bye TT
          	  and ISTG IF SOMEONE THINKS IM LYING FOR THE THOUSANDHT TIME ZIM NOT AND IF IM PRETENDING FOR ATTENTION MIND U I HATE ATTENTION EWW no that’s not for me other than that bye don’t miss me
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Starrari

Bye don’t miss me MWAH MWAH

Starrari

I never wanted to announce it like this but if I say this to ppl irl then they’ll just say it’s a phase it’ll pass …ARE U STUPID ITS NOT A PHASE IDIOT
            and I’m also scared cuz u know abt the five acc incident ppl lying about their stuff and all the other drama happening I just wanted to leave without saying anything butttt I’m not that type person I always say bye TT
            and ISTG IF SOMEONE THINKS IM LYING FOR THE THOUSANDHT TIME ZIM NOT AND IF IM PRETENDING FOR ATTENTION MIND U I HATE ATTENTION EWW no that’s not for me other than that bye don’t miss me
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Starrari

So when I wasn’t anyone first choice how I’m trouble some for being like this took a toll ig and then I basically took a break from socializing and became
           “ emo”  and yes ……..on July 31 I got two twin bros they’re so cute but now since I gotta stay at the hospital I’m worried it’s gonna be hard for my fam 
          
          And why I’m saying this now well ..a lot of drama was going on and still is but I couldn’t JUST RESCHEDULE IT CAN I TT  my sleeping schedule has been … very weird and yes I also found out my bestie form when I was 9 who left to another country and we lost all contact …died ..apparently she had a tumor in her brain and she left for treatment she died like when I was 11 it’s been two years and I find out last week …TT
          I’m sry if I made anyone uncomfortable I’mnever the type of person for friendships and relationships stuff smth always happens when I’m there someone leaves someone dies it’s too toxic im too much of a yapper so I absolutely don’t want anything to happen to this 
          
          To the ppl who were reading my books they’re scheduled to be published and ….yes I’ll come back just after all this ig yes I’m being awkward again 
          Again I’m sry if someone had expectations from me 
          I’m sry if I made u feel uncomfy or pressured I promise I always think twice before sending the msg TT BUT IDK WHAT TO DO SO…..
          Yes uhhh idk what to do bye

lovelyBeomhyunn

@Starrari It's definitely a great choice to take a break(AS I SAID)if it means to recollect yourself once again. Nope, you're not emo because it's a style not an insult(idk why they use that?? But it's offensive for others) also being sad isn't a bad thing, it's an emotion we can't ignore. So if you're sad, it's okay to be sad, there's someone with you if you're sad. 
            
            And, i'm sorry for your loss! 
            
            I'm glad you said this all, and I hope these comments will make you feel better because a sad ari won't make life good. So I hope you're happy right NOW, I hope you'll feel a lot better somehow, and don't overthink too much because what you're overthinking is all in your mind. Once again, I HOPE YA FEEL BETTER.
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Starrari

Ok so after that I remember being 10 ? When I went to an amusement park it was supposed to be fun ..well it was until some Egyptian woman came up to me and started pulling my hair almost ripping my clothes off ..like gurl wtf did I do to u ? After that I have another trauma from ppl like those 
          Ok lemme trauma dump 
          When I was in grade five I was in this toxic friendship the girl she used to ignore me whenever i did smth to someone else and not her and I cried so much because of her 
          When I was in grade six which was last year I finished grade seven now going to eight welp ok when I was in six there was this bully she bullied me and my “friend group those toxic ppl” alll he time she hit teachers then just imagine what she would do to us we had multiple principal meetings on how to “ be good to the bully” the girl even had a personal teacher for her 
          And then one day she pulls my hair outta nowhere …I think I said this once but she pulled my hair kicked my bag to the ground and other stuff and she just left the next day we have another one of those principal meetings now cuz of that bully I got a tooth ache so the principal saw me and thought I was smirking ! And yes she was LIKE YOUNG LADY COME TO MY OFFICE WHATS UR NAME and then she made me eat alone for my lunch break …yeah I think that’s where me getting separation typa stuff happen started
          
          Ever since I was A KID I absolutely never told my parents if I got a fever or a toothache or if my teeth is falling out ..why idk they told me once I got a fever it reached 40.5 and they found out when I stopped playing and just went to a corner yes idk why I did that 
          But I’m lowkey so tired of ppl irl  thinking just cuz I’m quiet it means I don’t have feelings I absolutely hate fighting but if it’s for anyone else gladly I’ll do it ur hurting someone I love UR GETTING UR ASS KICKED so when my classmates randomly started making rumors on how I’m a ghost how I’m never anyone’s first choice and yes 2000 words gonna end TT

lovelyBeomhyunn

@Starrari dang... that's a lot of traumas. I know it's hard to recover or not think about it, but I hope you'll feel better overtime.
            
             And yes, I understand that being quiet doesn't mean that you don't have feelings(because I relate lmoaa)but honestly, if you're feeling down please don't be afraid to tell it to someone you trust. Your feelings are geniuely important, keeping it to yourself makes it worse. But I'm glad you're comfortable enough to share this.
            
             And no, you're probably someone's first choice, WHAT MAKES U THINK THAT???
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Starrari

I’m taking a break from wattpad ik this is sudden and low-key outta nowhere but idk ..lemme just tell smth abt me 
          
          I’m twin no two and premature me and my twin were born like before seven months ? 
          Idk so my twin spent 41 days in the icu while I spent 57 ..and dayum was that a problem TT ok so after that yes I have always been the weaker one but what my fam thinks is i have a strong heart and in my 13 years of life they have thought that until uh…ufh 
          on Tuesday last week I had a blood test why uhh ma6be cause my fam caught me sleeping randomly when I’m the one who rarely sleeps TT 
          so they scheduled one for me so what my dumb self did is see the 1 and a half bottle of blood she was taking for me then my eyes land on the bad next to her and ..yes she was taking four huge ahh bottles of ….from me so uhhh erm I fainted…ok and then my relatives family siblings now say I have a weak heart ? And how they had expectations from me to have a strong one 
          
          Look it’s not my fault I have a weak heart did I ask for this NO so . Also yes I’m probably gonna stay in the hospital for a few days ? Idk the report came back and it’s uhhh exactly what would convince ppl to put me in a hospital 
          Other than that I have always been the person who despised attention talking and when ppl called me stuff ..actually lemme yap abt my life 
          So when I was in first grade I was like a topper got 99% after that my grades dropped and teachers my fam relatives started calling me“OVERCONFIDENT “ and other stuff like I expected more from u 
          Like I was six or smth and those words hurt me so fricking much and they still call me that to this,day like HOW THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO CRY WHEN I TRY HIDING MY FACE WITH MY BANGS THEYRE LIKE STOP HIDING UR FACE ..so basically a bit of trauma from those words and there’s more stuff but there’s a 2000 word limit so I’ll say it 8n the other rone

INandSunghoonsimp1

@Starrari Noo ml TAKE MY HEART I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO HAPPEN TO YOU. You don't have to be online, I just hope you get better, alr. I hope you heal well AND THE HOSPITAL BETTER TREAT MY BABY RIGHT. And BTW ur relatives suck. Anyjays LOVE YOU SO MUCH MWAH
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lovelyBeomhyunn

@Starrari it's okay to take a break, especially when you're in the hospital with that condition. Not only that, but to also take a break on your feelings too. Calm yourself down, thinking of something that upsets you will stress you outt. But overall, get well ari! Get enough sleepp
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Starrari

I SOMEHOW BROKE MY EARPHONES.SO SHOULD I REGRET NOT TAKING CARE OF IT OR DO I COMBUST . ILL DO BOTH TT NOW IM EARPHONELESS IF THAT MAKES SENSE IG T-T

Starrari

@HansSlvttyJaist ….HA GRANDPA
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Starrari

@Qrejworld so basically it got tangled BADLY and then I tried untangling it and then IT SOMEHOW SNAPPED IN HALF!?
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Qrejworld

@Starrari              how did u break ur earphones????!!!!! 
            
            
            I shouldn't be talking I lost mine...
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