Starry_Shin

I'm scared.. what if my parents become disappointed in me after seeing my grades.. I just want to hide. They always expect me with a good grade.. what If I waste their money for a fool like me, What if their money will go to waste after spending it to me on my school fees

All I wanted was to have a talk with someone, what happened?

You are disgusting, I want to fcking throw up, how could he threaten me just to see a glimpse of what's under, I hate you, I hate you, I FCKING HATE YOU

Why am I crying? Why can't decent people exist?? Am I crying because I thought that people like those on the screen actually exist here??

I thought I made a new friend but it turns out he just wanted my nudes

Butter just hits different✨

I'm still lost but I know it will all lead somewhere

"I am lost.. Trying to get found in an ocean of people"
          
          A lyrics came from one of my favorite artist. I relate to this because I feel lost
          
          I don't know what I want or what I want to happen with me anymore. I felt as if I'm drowning in my own thoughts

I just finished watching the series of cecil hotel about elisa lam and all I can say is "Wow" because the ending was absolutely unexpected 
          It made me cry 
          Not because she died, but the actual reason of why she died.
          I'm dealing with myself and thought that maybe I was just overreacting but it's just me being human
          It really did make my mind overwhelmed because the fact that I was not the only one dealing with this,
          The fact that I was not the only one.
          It made me smile and cry because the fact that we are all in this together and the fact that some people are dealing it really harder than I do
          
          It felt like I was meant to watch that story because not only it was fun and makes you curious but the fact it shows little things about people, especially introverted ones, on how the internet is like a diary for them. It was like an escape to reality and the fact that this is a true story is what makes me happy a little, no, not because of the death, but because someone out there can feel the pain I'm feeling right now

If I were to become one with the sky, I think that would be nice