Hey sweet cupcakes ❤️ First of all...Eid Mubarak everyone ❤️ How are y’all? I hope everyone is doing well ❤️ I apologize for being inactive for so long. As many of you know...my mother was extremely sick & that’s the reason I disappeared for these past few months.
My mother has been diagnosed with autoimmune encephalitis..which is basically a condition where the body’s immune system mistakenly attacks healthy brain cells causing inflammation in the brain. It often leads to memory loss, psychiatric symptoms, seizures & changes in mental state.
In my mother’s case... she suffered from seizures and severe memory loss. She’s currently receiving treatment & thankfully she’s doing a lot better now... The doctor said her memory may never fully return & she might never be exactly like she used to be… but she will become much more stable with time & treatment.
Now she recognizes me though there are still many behavioral changes but honestly I’m just grateful that she’s recovering & slowly getting better. I truly hope & pray she continues to heal more & more :)
And now that she’s improving I think I can finally let out all the emotions I’ve been bottling up for months… though I don’t know how to....my mind is still stuck in survival mode. My heart is still scared... I want to cry, I want to feel everything that happened during these four months… how I was left alone, how people I trusted disappeared when I needed them the most, how nobody was really there to comfort me or tell me that everything would be okay.... I want my heart & mind to finally relax & let everything out… maybe I will someday... Right now I don’t know how...
(The post is a bit long :( please make sure to read the first comment too ❤️)
