grrrrrwolfgang

I'm still processing the fact that heesung's leaving enhypen...
          I can't wrap my head around it. 

From today onwords I'm going to update what I studied here until my last exams. (This is my last attempt at getting my shit together)
          
          So here it goes.
          (2026.02.26)
          Did some organic chemistry exercises and made some short notes on them.
          (It's not much. But I'm gonna keep multiplying the amount of work as the days go by.

MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYSSSSSS!!!!
          (I know I'm late butttt it's better late than never haha)

@leesomniac 
          Thank  youuuuu 
          I'M CHEERING ON YOU TOO.
          LET'S DO THIS!!

hellooo

I legit saw an ozon levis structure (is that how you spell it in English??) in my dreams........ I feel like I'm going crazy.
          But we are NOT going to fail!!!!
          7 more months to go. 
          Let's do it.

@leesomniac 
          Other than that, my studies are great, my mental health's in the rock bottom, social life is in the trenches and having the best time in my life while joking about sleep deprivation. So, in conclusion, I'm miserable. 
          
          And i saw the massages you set me. I just didn't had the time to reply. And thank you for them. It truly means a lot. And I'm glad you massaged me today too. I think ranting did released so much stress. And now I have to get my very much needed sleep after those fuckeass exam papers. Have to start the drill again tommorw onwords. 
          
          And enough about me, how are you doing?????
          

@leesomniac 
          
          This is what the country's state in regards to the exams.
          
          So to answer your question about my studies, the last exam went to SHITTTTTT. everyone was losing their minds when we saw the exam paper. And I haven't slept for 2 weeks straight. And I may or may not be high on caffeine..... (I might be tbh. That's why I'm ranting like crazy. Why the FUCK I'm explaining the situation in my country with exams for a person that has their own concerns? I'm being extra stupid these days istggggg. And sorry for this shitty ranting. Hope you don't mind)( I have a feeling that you won't mind:))

@leesomniac 
          The challender looks exactly like this;
          
          Monday÷ 
          7am to 12pm - Applied math (via zoom)
          1pm to 6pm - paper discussions 
          
          Tuesday÷ 
          8am to 2pm - chemistry paper discussions
          
          Wednesday÷
          7am to 5pm - physics theory 
          
          Thursday÷ 
          7am to 12pm - physics theory (via zoom)
          
          Friday÷
          6am to 4pm chemistry theory
           
          Saturday÷
          7am to 12pm - physics theory 
          2pm to 5pm - math individual revision
          
          Sunday÷
          7.30am to 1pm - chemistry theory
          2pm to 5pm - pure math theory.
          
          This is the basic tuition time table. There are some in between classes I prolly forgot.
          
          You might ask, why this much classes. It's because the competition here in Sri Lanka is no joke. Only 1.5% of people who does math streams get selected to the universities because we have very, I mean a very small amount of universities.  So you have to be at least in the top 50 from a WHOLE ENTIRE district to get to get into uni. The fact that there's only 7 universities that have engineering courses makes it more competitive. And there's a large difference in the difficulty level of Sri lankan A/Ls and the foreign A/Ls. The exams department here literally makes the most difficult papers I've ever seen, mostly because they want give the opportunity to the best of the best students. So you have to be overly prepared for the exams if you want to get in to a good uni. 

@leesomniac 
          
          Actually today was the last day of my this year's exams, and from today onwards we are having holidays (the term "holiday"s not it, it's more like a break from scl or some sorts) the break is given because, the 2025 batch of A/L students are having their finals this November. So the government need our schools to be empty for this whole month to hold the exams. So we'll be staying at home for a month.... which is one hell of a joke. 
          Let me explain this. So if you don't know, in Sri Lanka, our school's don't do the teaching correctly. So we have to attend extra classes outside the school. And guess what, those extra classes are at least 4-5 hours long. And on top of all that, because of covid, we are 1 school year behind than the normal timelines of exam seasons, so because of this issues government's been pushing our exams to be held way earlier than the actual date to get back to the real phase of exams. This cause few year's batches to loose some time from their preparation periods, and the batch I'm in, the 2026 one is having the biggest damage so far with 5 months worth loss of study period. And we are having our finals in August 2026, which should be held on January 2027 if give the right amount of time that should be given. 
          This is the reason we won't be able to have a time to breath in this break. the tuitions that we attend are doubling their class time by holding two classes per week for a subject for 6-7 hours.
          
          So this whole month's challender is full to the brim......... I feel like pulling my hair until I go crazy ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh