Okay, so
I've graduated high school officially yesterday....but I didn't have a ceremony, not even my cap and gown. Guys...
This is honestly hurting me...all year( a very harsh year of my life) I've been waiting for the little trips with my friends the school puts on, the dresses, the high class look that I've never been able to pull off because of my mom and money wise...just gone.
Prom was gonna be that moment for me. I was gonna go all out. I can't anymore..
Graduation was gonna be that glamorous moment my name would be called and we'd throw our hats up(I think) and move on with our lives. I can't anymore...
Most of my friends are going away for college, hell, they'll be gone for summer programs at their school...I won't see them again until they are close to graduation.
Look, I know there are actual people out there suffering and actually dying. I pray for them. To see another day and if theses are their last moments, then I hope the best after they've pasted on. But, I'm always worried about others and never myself. I care so much for others, I forget to care for myself. Everybody tells me to stop doing that but it's just in my nature. I can't help it. Just when I started to loosen up on it, everything happened.
Because of everything going on, I'm missing things that I've been waiting on for 10 years now. I saw my big sister go through her senior week, her trips, her prom(she was gorgeous, and still is), and her graduation (she was so pretty, and in the top 10 of her class).
Ever since then, I've wanted that.
Sorry to anyone whoever is hurting due to the virus and anyone going through the same thing I am. Something good will come our way. ❤️