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Hey, I just want to say that your book Heaven's Fallen Angel is an amazing story and some of the chapters really hit home for me. I've struggled with self-harm off and on for the past four years and I still have moments when I wanna just end everything because I think that the world would be better off without me. Now, in the back of my kind, I know that isn't true, but the mask I've made for myself always tells me otherwise. For a while, I thought that the mask I made was right because of the voices that always told me to kill myself or told me to make some more cuts. It didn't matter what the rational part of my mind thought, it only mattered what the fucked up part of my mind thought. And that side of my brain always told me to keep cutting until there was nothing left for me to cut. I was 14 the first time I tried to commit suicide and I almost succeeded, but my best friends boyfriend at the time broke down my friends bathroom door where I had locked myself and grabbed the knife before I could drag its blade across my neck in one fell swoop. I never realized until that day how much I truly meant to others. Like I said, I still have my moments of doubt when I'm told to kill myself, but I don't let it get to me anymore because I've finally learned that, it doesn't matter what other people think of me, it only matters what I think of me. So, thank you for sharing that story with the world. If you ever need someone to talk to, just shoot me a message and I'll be there