Map Of Problematique by Muse is the saddest but so relatable it’s hopeful song I’ve ever heard and it means so much to me. I heard in the last season of TUA and it’s a perfect song to end the almost perfect but tragic show. The song also accurately describes something I feel like I’ve been going through all of 2024 and the beginning of 2025.
I’m 19 years old now, no longer the little 12 year old who made this account and had such high expectations of current me. She’d be disappointed with who I am now but maybe it’s a good thing. I was so up tight, nervous, mean and scared then. I’m just nervous and scared now, 2024 was when I experienced my first major love and heartbreak. But considering I’m not a perfect person anymore and the relationship started out as toxic, I should have known we were doomed. I think I knew this then but choose to continue because it was my first love and I wasn’t going to let go, now I kinda wish I did then so it wouldn’t hurt so much now. Anyway, this song makes me feel happy and sad about my first love in 2024