Dawn Lehr

I know I haven't posted in a while, but I'm having a crisis, and I need help. Tomorrow is the 4th of July, and my siblings with be away, and I don't really have any friends. So my only option is to go spend it with my mother and her judgy bf. Because I still live at home. And she won't let me stay home. What am I supposed to do? I don't want to be judged the whole way to the fireworks show..

This whole empathy thing is making me majorly burn out. But I gotta keep this up, out a smile on my face, take my depression meds and get back out there. Because I'm the therapist and without me my friends cease to function. Eheh.

Happy Pride Month everyone! I'm pan and gender fluid, I wish I could celebrate with y'all.. Anyways y'all have an amazing month!!

When I come home from school, I ride with all the littles from the elementary, they're usually cool, and give me a ton of high fives, and the other day a kindergartner told me he wanted to marry me, which I told him I couldn't because I was too old, it made him a little sad but he understood. But none of this compares to what happened to me today... Today a 6 year old boy decided to slap my ass when I got off the bus, and when I turned to look at him he smiled the biggest smile on his face. I had no idea how to confront him about that, so I awkwardly got off the bus, and went home, and now I'm ranting to y'all about this.

If you know this/like this song, we can be great friends ^v^ 
          
          All the small things
          True care, truth brings
          I'll take one lift
          Your ride, best trip
          
          Always I know
          You'll be at my show
          Watching, waiting
          Commiserating
          
          Say it ain't so
          I will not go
          Turn the lights off
          Carry me home
          
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          
          Late night come home
          Work sucks, I know
          She left me roses by the stairs
          Surprises let me know she cares
          
          Say it ain't so
          I will not go
          Turn the lights off
          Carry me home
          
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          Na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na, na-na
          
          Say it ain't so
          I will not go
          Turn the lights off
          Carry me home
          
          Keep your lips still
          I'll be your thrill
          The night will go on
          My little windmill
          
          Say it ain't so
          (Na-na, na-na) I will not go
          (Na-na, na-na, na-na) Turn the lights off
          (Na-na, na-na) Carry me home
          
          Keep your lips still
          (Na-na, na-na) I'll be your thrill
          (Na-na, na-na, na-na) The night will go on, the night will go on
          (Na-na, na-na) My little windmill

I've been feeling like this heavy object is on my chest, I can barely breathe, I can't eat, I don't know what to do with myself half the time. Maybe if my friends were still actually my friends things would be better, but they're not. 
          So instead on waiting for the people in my school to remember I exist.. Who wants to rp with me? 

Hi
          

I love you and I miss you so much baby girl I want you back in my life 
          

If you are there I love you so much baby girl I want to kill my self because of what my brother did and said to you 

Miss you so much