Okay kisses, I know I haven't really been updating as I said I would. I am sorry. I am just sick of everything that's been going on in my life. I am ashamed to admit that I have considered taking my life. Almost daily in fact. And if any of you have ever felt that way you know that it is a difficult thing to deal with. I have always had that one person though. She raised me, taught me how to love someone for who they are. And taught me to see the world for what it is. She has called me her last hope, that is, her last chance to raise a child to be good. And because of that I fight for her and she still doesn't know everything. I am just sad that she doesn't see how much it hurts when she tells me she thinks I don't care about her. I am sorry to unload this on all of you but it feels good to tell someone about it. If you are even there. Are you still there? I understand if you left. It's okay and you don't have to feel guilty. Even though we only talk through my work, I feel like I can trust you guys.
Anyway, I am sorry if I ruined your day. Considering it hasn't been on the news, I assume no one has taken over the world with beanie babies. Someone should really get on that. I would like to see that happen.
Until the very last word *bows*
Hugs and Kisses
