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HAPPY NEW YEARS YALL
WARNING VERY PERSONAL EXISTENTIAL CRISIS VERY SERIOUS IF YOU DONT CARE JUST SKIP
On a more serious note it feels kinda sad to me? Like I’m just thinking about it now and like holy shit ill only experience so much new years and like every time it just feels shorter and shorter. Like on average a person will experience around 80 new years in their life time and I’ve already been through 18 of them. I always end up looking back thinking about all ive done and all the time i spent with friends and family laughing and having fun i always end up thinking to myself “was that enough? Could i gave spent more time living?” Idk i think its mostly because im in my senior year of high school rn i keep on wondering to myself if i made the most of it, if ill see my friends after, if im fine with just the memories i have right now. Whenever new years comes around i feel scared at how fast it was every time it puts into perspective to me that my life is short and in a blink of an eye everything will change: people will leave my life, others will enter it, i will have more responsibilities, ill like and hate new things, ill live somewhere else, ill eat different things and that change really just scares me.
Anyways its prolly just that late night sadness thing its like 2am rn so i should probably get some sleep.