@Storm-The-Icewings Hey Storm, it's been a while. I don't know if I'm misinterpreting your words here, but I wanted to say, I can't imagine what you're going through, but please don't do anything rash. I'm speaking from experience here; it does get better. I promise. It did for me; I got out of there, I've been accepted into my dream degree at university, I'm excited for the future again, and I'm even still writing. It will be okay, I swear.
Always remember, it's not by our own strength that we make it through. I pray it every night; "By Your strength, Lord, not my own. I need you, God. Please. You are always with me, but I forget. Please help me never forget you are always with me." It might be through the people around you that you know He is there, helping; just a kind word or maybe a sense of comfort in a long, lonely night.
Please know that you don't owe any of us anything. I stopped using Wattpad a long time ago, just because I felt I outgrew it, and it became more of a social media platform than a space for reading and writing stories. I found places on the internet that I like better, and still stay connected with Wattpad friends in places other than here. If you want to leave this site, don't feel guilty about it. If you write, write for yourself, not for anyone else. Do it because you love it. If you don't, it doesn't deserve your time, and it's not worth the pain.
I know wherever life and the Lord takes you next will be wonderful. Chin up, kid. You'll be okay.
See you around.