Waking up feeling good then having something immediately make u wanna cry and scream sucks. Not knowing why u feel the way you do sucks knowing that you're effecting ppl around u sucks. The one time I feel good is when I'm asleep or when I doing nothing not thinking abt anything. Then there's still something. I don wanna do this anymore. I don wanna cry all the time and have drive seconds of happiness. I'm fucking up my safe space. But how do I tell someone one day they're going go get tired of me of everything and leave. I can't sleep unless I go little when I do it's for five maybe six hrs I feel bad for over sleeping I feel horrible for making her feel the way she felt. No one is listening tho I'm so tired of feeling this way I'm so tired of crying and not knowing why I'm tired trying to do everything absolutely perfectly only for everyone to focus on one thing I didn't do. I'm so tired of telling ppl shit and them not understanding what I'm saying. I have no mire energy I give up I jus wanna feel okay. I'm sorry to everyone so very sorry but I can't keep doing this. Living is getting hard
@Strawberry_K1sses I LOVE CHUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS oh and we talked about this im never leaving and this ring isn't coming off until there's a promise and engagement ring on my finger. Even tho we have rough days like yesterday that doesn't change the way I feel about you. I'm never ever leaving u and I love chus
Love,
Bunny