Strawberrymine_1

I have an exam and projects this week. I also have to prepare myself for other classes. I WILL CRY, OMFGGGGG So much! I also have driving classes this week CRYING

Strawberrymine_1

I have work today. I despise my job. I wouldn't be in this position if my parents had let me quit on the spot. I'm so slow at my work because it is so boring. I nearly fall asleep every time. It's sooo dull. Nobody talks to me. I have nobody to chit-chat with. Usually that would be ok, but then they have that sort of resentment in their eyes and then I want to leave. I really need to come out of my shell and not care about anyone's opinion. Kid me used to do that all the time and it had gotten her somewhere. But the bullying, the verbal abuse, infested everything and now there is just me. Not courageous, not resilient, not proud, not really that happy. I hate people calling me abnormal. My mom always calls me. From the moment I could talk. I wouldn't eat as a toddler nor drink. I would repeatedly runaway. I never knew that I had that many problems. Adults usually don't like me. I try to avoid them the best I can. I can't talk with people my age either. Too many groups. What do I do?

Strawberrymine_1

Just came to the realisation that I am basically useless and worthless. I can't do anything good. I am not unique. I fail at the simplest task. Hell, I can even sit still. When someone has a picture of me in their head, they will grasp onto that with their dear life. I'll never be anything different than that picture.