Strawberrymine_1

My teacher (for driver's license) basically mocked me for not responding adequately to his made up stories :(

I FUCKING DESPISE MY DRIVER'S LICENSE TEACHER. I FUCKING HATE DRIVING. I DESPISEEEEE THIS WITH MY WHOLE BODY AND SOUL

Why am I so agitated 

God has favourites and I am definitely not one of them ☹️

I want to study and study and study. I despise my mortal body for needing to rock back and forth for self stimulation.

We are basically molecules 

I FUCKING HATE EATING. I WISH I COULD FUCKING SURVIVE WITHOUT IT. (It's not about wanting to be skinny or anything, I just fucking hate eating. I despise it. I've already despised it as a toddler [my parents forced the food down my throat] and now I despise it even more). 
          
          I had gained unnecessary weight from the age 9 to 14 because my parents over-fed me. I felt like trash. I didn't need all that food. I felt tired most of the time and uncomfortable in my body. 
          
          I don't need that much food (one meal a day was always enough for me) and also drinking (that varies, though). My brain mixes my stomach digesting food with hunger. So I eat a complete plate to satisfy that phantom hunger. But then my brain realises that I am completely full and on the brink of throwing up.
          
          
          Now I know why I had so many stomach issues at the age of 10 (including the bullying and sxualharrasment). 

I can't handle all of this anymore. I need an adult to help me out with this one /j
          

Fucking hate my life again. I want to be one with the earth and be no more. Or just sleep for eternity 

When showering turns you into a whole different person :D