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[I could not be more disgusted of myself. During track today, coach said we would be doing 200s without spikes (Which is super dumb cuz I kinda need those for 200s). My first thought was "Oh, this is gonna be easy! I can do a 200!" But that quickly changed after I did them. On the very first one I went all out thinking it was an all out sprint, only to find out that it wasn't once I finished. I started to develop a huge headache as I was running which I'm not even sure as to why I had one at all. On the 2nd 200, I almost threw up, but ended up swallowing it, making my whole mouth taste like throw up. This is honestly so weird because I didn't even drink that much water or eat too much. On the 3rd 200, I felt this unimaginable pain in my lungs. It was a stitch, one the worst ones I've ever had. It hurt so bad that it had me on the ground, wriggling in pain. 3 people asked me if I was okay, to which I responded with "Yep, I'm great," and a weak thumbs up. Luckily, one of my track mates told me what to do when a stitch happens (Props to her btw). I soon joined everyone else once I felt better and kept running. Only to get another smaller stitch at the end. Now, my whole body feels like absolute shit and I can't feel any of my limbs. And what's worse than all this? THE GODDAMN FOOTBALL DUDES WERE OUT THERE. I felt so embarrassed because (and this may just be my anxiety talking to me) it feels like I'm constantly being watched. And I HATE when I feel like I'm being watched. It's creepy. But now I'm pissed off because I shouldn't be struggling this hard just to do 6 200s. I'M A SPRINTER, I'M SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD AT THIS! And now, I can't stop thinking about how badly I did on these stupid 200s. IT'S EMBARRASSING! I SHOULD BE GOOD AT THIS AND YET SOMEHOW I'M NOT?! I swear imma lose my mind if this shit happens again bro. I'm now gonna go scream at a wall and try to forget this all ever happened T-T. Anyways, hope y'all have a good day/night!]