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          not updatinf that month thingy since my entire year is gon be shit either way ❤

Ik its not the end of the month but what JUST happend to me is deff the worst thing thats happend all the years 2020 was bad but compared to 2024 so far? i think id rather stay in 2020 and watch all the cringey shit 
          
          January — shit
          February — i can live trough
          March — so far the best month
          April — worst fucking month out of all the years I have ever lived. im not even being dramatic
          May — (I will literally cry if this month goes wrong)
          June —
          July —
          August —
          September —
          October —
          November —
          December —

imagine taking a break from disc but checking up on the gc every 3 days and noticing that they barely talk, and just then realising how much you talk in the gc

pt3
          
          This all brings us back to the current problem, me not really wanting to talk to him. We were on a call a few hours ago and hekept asking why i wasnt talking much, I was half honest and told him, "i dont feel like talking" [to you] obvi wasnt gonna tell him that though. So eventually he hung up on me and when i aske why he left he just didnt answer so i went on the phone with my other friend, who was getting donated like crazy. so eventually he calls again a gew moments after she left [her parents came home] and when i answered and asked why he left he didnt nswer me.
          I think he was upset at the fact that i wasnt talking much to him like i usually do. 
          I can understand him but then again you ever know if i just wanted some space. . . im a people pleaser in a way, yes, but im not gonna please you and not pease myself. theres a always a limit. i can understand tht were humans and nothing is ever good enough and that we'kk akways want more, but you atkeast gotta understand that no everyone is willing to give you their all. im not willing since weve only met online. i mean i kinda see why most of our friends get a breack from him. hes tiring to be arond even if hes our friend. no tiring as in hes annoying but, he sometimes doesnt understand ther peoples perspectives and stuff.  and he should bc if this is how t is hes being downgraded from estfriend to friend. as much as i dont want to. it doesnt matter if you donate me 10k on roblox, this just isnt healthy for ppl mentally.
          
          
          am i over reacting or do yall agree with me??? [be honest pls]

idk if yal got the notif but pt2 is below this announcement

I dont want to tell him this though bc he might think of me as an overreactor or a spoiled brat or he might just start an argument with me. which, once again, i dont want. I'd let someone else tell him this for me but then id be immature and "scared to face him" ive seen how he is once someone talks the littles bit behind their backs. you dont get to explain much as he tells you your immature and a b!tch. i hate talking behind ppls back bc this gives me anxiety. just hope he wont see this for now ig. 
          
          another thing, ive TOLD him i have a hard time saying no to ppl so this isnt helping the case much. i love my s=bestie but this is just not working out to well for me mentally. i always get mysel in some sort of friendship problem and can never really get myself to confront ppl.
          
          Hes tried the game only a few times, but i never ask him to join bc of that, i ask im to join to look at my creations and t=rate them for me. alot of ppl have seen my inventore and how i make my avatars. hes one of the few who hasnt bc he doesnt stay longer then 5 to 9 minutes.
          
          He also tries to use him joining me as an excuse for me to join him. ive joined him over 30 times and he joined me less then 10. we play games HE wants to play bc he feels lik it. it takes a sh!t ton of convincing to tell him i DONT want to play bowling. i dislike bowling alot and it takes so much rejecting before he lets it go.
          
          i dont wanna bad mouth abt him but atp its the thruth and i need to et it out to someone isntead of talking to myself in the mirror. but its hard to when you have a bit f a problem trusting ppl or ppl not beieving you. its a BIGGER problem that the people i do trust are also HIS friends, making it harder to find someoneo i canactuallly trust that wont spill my business everywhere.
          
          Pt3 after another comment.
          
          [their coming out in parts bc my imit is abt 2000 letters n stuff.]

I need someone to tell me if i was being rude or not.
          
          So me n my best friend we're on a call and i didn't feel like talking to him too much. Nothing bad just couldn't really match his energy, he's always singing and talking n stuff and it was a bit much for me since i wasn't in the mood for it. Not that im tired of him, i just think i need a small mental break from him ig. not in a rude way ofc. he's just so open to everyone and i dont really like my circle of friends being this big, not that i regret meeting my friends, just that its a bit much for me.
          
          One of the thing im upset at him about is the fact that whenever HE wants to play a game, more specifically, roblox or the sims, and i tell him i dont want to, he always somehow makes me join him even if i dont want to. as i said before, im easy to guilt trip and manipulate, depending on the person ofc. 
          Here's a more specific example of why im upset; if he wants to play bloxburg to show me somthing, instead of rejecting him and keep on saying no, i join him so he can be happy. 
          
          But if i ask him to join me on catalog avatar he tells me no and says "Screenshare it and ill watch" or "No i dont wanna play that game its so boring." as if bloxburg isnt boring to me, but i still join to make you happy. feels a bit upsetting that hes not doing the same for me. The FEW TIMES he has joined was because, i had to actually force him by threatening to hang up and not talk to him for a few days, if Jess was telling him to or if i wasn't answering his calls on discord. Which is really upsetting and makes me wanna talk to him less sometimes, and talk to other ppl who would atleast join me for 15 minutes to let me show them my creations.
          
          pt2 will be out if atleast 1 person comments to let me know that ppls are reading this

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