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I hate the things I do, And all the shit I put you through, I hate me. Most days I can't believe I'm still here, Most days I'm surprised. I'm sick of having you depend on me cause I'll let you down like I always do. I am the world's worst, I am my own worst, It's crazy you stuck with me. And through all the times we've had, I never saw what you saw in me, Through all the times we've tried. I could never be what you needed of me but I wish I were. I still remember how I made you feel, Once upon a time. My thoughts go black it breaks my heart. It's true, there's room for you. Isn't it obvious I'm a wreck? I set these fires just for you. Isn't it obvious I've calmed down? I saved my breakdowns just for you. "Yeah, it's cool, I'll be okay" I felt your pain wash over me. So I dry your eyes and hide my shakes. I hate the look that's on your face. These things inside my head never make much sense. Don't hang up, Because I don't have anyone left here. Don't hang on to anything I've said. I hate my weaknesses, they made me who I am. It makes no difference, I'm insignificant. And this is not the end for us. I'm used to being left behind. I remember a time when someone could love me. I remember when I still felt alive. So I wouldn't hold my breath...I hope I die before they save my soul
