StrongerThanILook

Hey loves,
          
          I just wanted to pop in and give everyone a little life update because I know I’ve been quieter than usual. Life has very much been lifing lately, and apparently it came with a full orchestra, backup dancers, and a smoke machine.
          
          Poly dating is already no joke, especially when you’re still newer to it and figuring out how to balance emotions, schedules, communication, and being a functional human being at the same time. On top of that, work has been absolutely insane. I swear the second the weather got hot, the universe opened the “release the chaos gremlins” cage and sent every single one of them directly to my job.
          
          And because the weather has been nice, family has also been coming and going out of state a lot, so there’s been a lot happening on that front too. Between work, relationships, family, and just trying to keep myself from turning into a burnt piece of toast, I haven’t had the time or energy to write the way I want to.
          
          I’m not abandoning anything. I’m still here, still thinking about my stories, still loving them, and still grateful for all of you. I just needed to be honest that my brain has been running on fumes lately. Thank you for being patient with me, for sticking around, and for giving me room to be a person outside of the words on the page.
          
          Hopefully things calm down soon and I can get back into the writing cave where I belong. Preferably with snacks, caffeine, and fewer emotional side quests.

Hey loves 
          
          Tiny update from me because today turned into A Whole Thing.
          
          I was supposed to go to court this morning to support someone, but I woke up extremely sick and ended up throwing up on and off for hours. It got bad enough that I had to go in and get checked out, but thankfully everything looked okay. They gave me an anti-nausea shot, which helped a ton, and I’m home now resting.
          
          They did tell me to keep an eye on some lower pelvic pain just in case it turns into anything more serious, but for now I’m okay. Mostly exhausted, a little dramatic, and very personally offended by my own body. The stomach apocalypse was not on my schedule today, but apparently my body likes surprise plot twists.
          
          On a much happier note, I’ve officially started working on turning Waiting For Us into something I could potentially publish one day.
          
          It won’t be exactly the same story, obviously. Some things have to change, some things will grow into something new, and the original version will always have its own special place. But I’m honestly really excited about where it’s going. There’s something kind of terrifying and beautiful about taking a story that has meant so much to me and asking, “Okay… what could you become if you got to stand completely on your own?”
          
          So that’s where I’m at today: recovering, resting, drinking fluids like a sad little Victorian child, and slowly poking at the publishable version of Waiting For Us.
          
          Thank you for being patient with me, always. I love you guys, and I’m really excited to share more when I can. 

Hey everyone!
          
          I wanted to give a quick update on my current fic plans and completion goals for the rest of this year and into next year.
          
          For the rest of this year, my planned completion order is:
          
          Legend of Asana: Inferno — Avatar: The Last Airbender
          This is my current top priority and should be completed this week.
          
          Merlin
          This will be one of the next fics I focus on finishing.
          
          Stranger Things
          Turned Upside Down is also planned for completion by the end of the year.
          
          Harry Potter
          Also part of the end-of-year completion goal.
          
          House of the Dragon
          Updates will most likely resume when season three is released.
          
          Looking further ahead:
          
          Supernatural — Current goal: 2027.
          Stray Kids — Orbiting Hearts Universe — Current goal: 2027.
          Game of Thrones — This accidentally turned into a massive project with a full lore bible, new characters, and a lot of worldbuilding. Current goal: 2027.
          Grey’s Anatomy — TBD, because there are so many seasons to work through.
          ATLA Graphic Novels / Legend of Korra — This depends on reader feedback. If people want the continuation, the rough goal is graphic novels by the end of 2026 and Legend of Korra by the end of 2027.
          
          For now, Destiny of Souls and Embers of Us are both on hiatus. That does not mean I hate them or will never return to them. They just are not the current priority.
          
          I am also trying very hard not to post any more WIPs until the end of the year. We will see how that goes with the ADHD, especially since Daredevil and Criminal Minds are already trying to drag me into side quests.
          
          Thank you all so much for your patience, comments, votes, reads, and encouragement. I know waiting for updates can be frustrating, so I really appreciate everyone who has stuck around while I try to get organized and finish what is already posted.
          
          Again.
          
          We will see how that goes. ❤️

IM SO EXCITED FOR HOTTD SEASON THREEEEEE!! 
          
          
          You know what that means!!!! 
          
          We get more Aemond/Saenyra and Daemon/ Lyrah content!!! 
          
          https://youtu.be/gyabeS5GmSg?si=d5ncbxk9jerg40C4

NEW CHAPTERS FOR PILLAR COMING OUT TODAY!! 

Hey loves, here’s a proper writing update because my brain is currently juggling multiple universes at once and none of them know how to behave.
          
          I have ADHD, so I tend to go through writing binges depending on which fandom currently has me in a chokehold. That means I bounce around a lot, but I wanted to make a post showing exactly what I’m working on, what still needs editing, and what is going to take me a hot minute to finish.
          
          **Current Projects**
          
          **Orbiting Hearts Universe**
          
          * Hold My Hand (Minsung)
          * Hallucination (IN/OC)
          * As We Are (Seungmin/OC)
          * Second half of Stay With Me (OT8/OCs)
          
          **Baldur’s Gate**
          
          * The Saintsbane Cycle (Evil Durge/Ascended Astarion fic series)
          * Planned as 3 books
          
          **Harry Potter Fanfic Series — The Diana Prince Chronicles**
          
          * Currently on Chamber of Secrets
          * Planned as 3 books
          
          **Supernatural Fanfic Series — Nox Aveum**
          
          * Still in the OC origins starting point
          * Long way to go
          * Planned as around 4–5 books
          
          **Stranger Things Fanfic Series — Upside Down Sisters**
          
          * Currently around season 2/3
          * About 1.5 more books left
          
          **Merlin Fanfic Series — The Rise of Albion**
          
          * Currently on the last book
          
          **What’s Already Written But Needs Editing**
          
          * Merlin series
          * Hold My Hand
          
          Everything else is either being started from scratch or is still deep in development, so a lot of these are going to take me a while to finish. And that is not even including any new ideas that decide to worm their way into my brain uninvited like tiny little chaos demons with a lease agreement.
          
          Thank you all so much for being patient with me while I bounce between fandoms and projects. I promise the stories are still coming, even if my process sometimes looks like a bookshelf exploding in slow motion.

Are you going to update stay with me because hyunjin needs a baby 

Annnnnnnnnd we are back!!! Baldurs Gate chapters went up today with more coming tomorrow!!!! 
          
          Ugh I missed this kind of writing flow! 
          
          Life update: I’m somewhat settled in the new place. Husband stole my desk until further notice cause we need to build his. BUT on the bright side I have a whole room to hide in with my PC for gaming now. It’s behind a bookcase and my nerdy brain is so happy. I literally am in there everyday when I have a whole ass house to enjoy. ‍♀️‍♀️  
          
          Anyway I’m back so let’s see how we do! 

I want to start by saying this clearly, because my brain keeps trying to convince me otherwise: I have not abandoned anything. Not a single story. Not a single universe. They are all still here, alive and breathing and waiting for me just as impatiently as you are.
          
          But moving has done something strange to my head.
          
          It’s the kind of disruption that doesn’t look dramatic from the outside. The boxes are mostly gone. The furniture is in place. Life is good. I love this new chapter. And yet my brain still feels like it’s standing in a doorway, unsure which version of “home” it belongs to. Every time I sit down to write, it’s like my thoughts scatter in twelve directions at once, chasing ghosts of routines that don’t exist anymore.
          
          And now, to add insult to injury, I’ve got a cold. So my body, in its infinite wisdom, has decided this is the perfect moment to hit the brakes and whisper, “You’re done. Rest.”
          
          The problem is, my heart is not done. My imagination is not done. I want to write so badly it aches.
          
          So here’s where everything currently stands:
          
          Currently Posted & Active:
          • Stranger Things  
          • Grey’s Anatomy  
          • Baldur’s Gate  
          • Game of Thrones  
          • Supernatural  
          • Skyrim  
          • Harry Potter  
          
          These worlds are already growing roots behind the scenes. They haven’t met you yet, but they will.
          
          Right now, my creativity isn’t gone. It’s displaced. It’s recovering. It’s recalibrating to new walls, new light, new rhythms. ADHD, illness, and environmental upheaval are a chaotic trio, and unfortunately my brain is the battleground at the moment.
          
          But I am still here. The stories are still here. And they will continue.
          
          Thank you for your patience. Truly. You’re not shouting into an empty void. I’m just finding my way back to the desk.

Hey my beautiful chaos gremlins 
          
          I just crawled out of a 72-hour packing-and-moving vortex. New house, boxes everywhere, zero concept of time, and approximately negative sleep. Every bone and muscle in my body is screaming like they’ve filed a formal complaint with management. I ache. I burn. I am powered entirely by spite and determination.
          
          I just inhaled Thai food—the first real food I’ve eaten all day—and I swear it hit my bloodstream like a blessing straight from the universe. Glorious. Life-affirming. Possibly saved my soul.
          
          I’m about to collapse into sleep like a Victorian child with the vapors, because if I don’t, my body will simply shut me down itself. But here’s the important part: somewhere in the middle of the chaos, an amazing story clawed its way into my brain. Fully formed vibes. Big emotions. Dangerous potential. It’s been rattling around for days, tapping on the inside of my skull like hey bestie, when are we writing me.
          
          Once I get some real sleep and my bones forgive me, I am diving back into writing with feral enthusiasm. I miss it. I miss you. Thank you for being patient while I played real-life Tetris with my entire existence.
          
          Sleep now. Words soon. Chaos always.