StuQ_Romantic
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I fell in love when I was 16 and got my heart broken at 17
The way he left me was really fucked up and I still think about him even years later and it's fucking pathetic. We are both married with children but I still ask why I wasn't enough and why he no longer wanted me in his life. I am over the love crap ofc but the hurt is still there even years after the fact. It hurt so much and was so traumatizing and he went on to have an amazing cookie cutter life while I got raped twice, mentally and physically abused by my mom then to finally be with someone who I feel only married me to have a stable home. He doesn't do romantic things with me and he doesn't have the same interests as me. I'm 23 now and I love my husband and kids but the hurt of my past has not gone away it has turned into jealousy and depression for why I'm not good enough for romantic gestures or just the little things to show I was thought about. I'm married but my husband treats it as if he doesn't need to put any effort anymore. Why do i gotta ask why can't he just do it. Shouldn't he want to because he is so in love? I just wanna feel a spark again
I wanna feel loved again. I'm tired of never feeling good enough, never heard. I'm so desperate for love it's disgusting
