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it's 15th December.. yk what that means? 
          
          HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PARK MOONDAE/KEUNDAL(?) !!!

MOONDAE PFP, MALAYSIAN AND BORN IN FEBRUARY???? OMG WE'RE TWINS

Was it casual when you guys called me mak, mother and kaa-san? /platonic
          
          (this actually happened with my friends, but don't take the was it casual thing literally. Am just kidding) 

Yk, Ive never realize something about myself until someone point it out to me.
          
          A classmate told me that I walked like a model in a fashion show, and my friends immediately agreed. They said something along the line of me always taking long stride instead of a short one and I held my posture.
          
          And then when school lineup (kawat kaki/pembarisan, dk what it called in English) my senior called me out and said to 'walk properly' and that the competition we were entering is not a 'catwalk' competition.
          
          Like, damn?? 

i cried at school today.
          
          because alisa - my friend - accidentally pushed me to the ground lmao

yk, when my friends told me that i'm like their big sister and that they are my younger sisters, there's just this warm and fuzzy feeling i got inside. 
          
          to be fair i AM the eldest in the group by few days and moths, but i have never thought of myself in that way with them that it make me feel something's special :)

I really feel guilty and free rn.
          
          Guilty for suddenly trauma dumping on my best friend out of nowhere when she only asked me why I hate him so much.
          
          Free because for once, I can confess my feeling without being judged or blamed for anything. For being respected by my friend by getting a silent comfort through text messages. For having her being sympathetic of MY feeling instead of anyone else.
          
          
          
          I will forever be grateful to her for ever meeting me. 

I decide to finally post my old work here ^^
          
          I will fix it up later since I'm lazy currently ~~

ok, fine. yk what?
          
          *start reading to entertain an idea of a songfic*
          
          /on another note, should i posted a tcf songfic i wrote a while ago here? i did originally wrote it on wattpad since it's easier before moving to docs to right my poor grammar and posted it on ao3 but like. should i??

i remember when my new teacher casually trauma dumped on me and my classmates.
          
          it was a normal day yk, she were teaching us how to solve the problems and all. and then boom! she randomly start talking about her previous school and what happened.
          
          apparently. on one day, one of her student was playing her phone at the hallway of flat when her phone slipped and fall. she tried to catch it but ended up falling too. mind you, she fell in around 15-20 floor height.
          
          my teacher was informed of this and were interrogated, mostly to why and how it happened. since she was the student's homeroom teacher and all.
          
          anyways, my teacher says that it's a normal occurrence at her school and it happened every year?? and that many students there fall off a high building???
          
          
          
          my teacher is really strong. if i was her, i would've been traumatized. it's like a curse :/