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Hi I have something to say. I'm not qsychic but I've predicted moving house ever since my family has moved house alot. I hate packing repacking bullshit. All I want is a permanent house to own were you don't have to keep moving all the fucking time a house with a ramp no stairs a dishwasher so I wouldn't have to wash dishes the men In the house are so lazy the next house we move in is going to be the same bullshit we move in then inspector inspects house says we have to pack move rinse fucking repeat I'm sick of it I'm pissed off I want to punch my anger out

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And as for the lady shake I didn't ask him to buy it he buys it but judges me anyway. I hate him so much. It was better off with just me and mum. Until my brother contacted are dad. Now I have to deal with all this bs. It's not fair I'm one who suffers everyday. Then soon mum is going away. I'll be left to suffer more. I feel tired exhausted and in pain. But I'm dealing with it best I can. When she goes to the Philippines I'll be the only female in this house until she gets back.
          
          It'll suck because I don't like being around dad. Soon I'll have to deal with his lazy grumpy by myself. My brother doesn't have to. 

Today at din time. Dad said you want sour cream I said no thanks in a polite way. You know what he said as he walked of he mimics in a sarcastic way no thanks repeatedly like I can't hear how rude.

Hello so I'm old and fat people judge they always do. They stare shake there heads. Talk about you like your not there but are. 
          
          It's hard for me because I never leave the house. Take meds because I have disability. So I want to try opti slim to lose weight. Well it didn't work. But who judged me my dad. Then he bought Lady shake. And said follow directions God I'm not dumb I can read. Then he tells me off and says if you don't follow directions it won't work.
          
          This was in the kitchen his voice is loud. Like I can hear barely don't have to be loud. He tells me that the drink isn't for losing weight. It's for starving you of junk food. 
          
          I drink that crap still no results. I'm still fat the scales don't change. Eat salad and fruits and yoghurt to see if the drink works nope.
          
          

Hello I feel so angry tired exhausted. I feel like ending my life soon. Plus I can't sleep at night because of the buzzing ringing sounds in my ears. And it's all dads fault for using my computer to play around with settings. My volume was perfect on five because I was using headsets. Then while he was on my computer doing stuff he changed the volume to 65. When he was done on my computer. I forgot to change back volume to five. So now my ears that weren't buzzing ringing are now fudged. And I think there permanent. Went to doctor who said to see special ear doctor. The guy said there's nothing they can do about it. All I hear day night all the time is buzzing ringing it won't stop. I want to die and hope soon it'll happen. I'm getting old and if this buzzing doesn't stop then why should I live. 

Hello today what happened I got yelled at by my dad. It was around dinner time. When he yelled Maryanne dinner. Then he got impatient while I got my dinner. Then he yelled so the neighbours could hear because house isn't sound proof. Why don't you like salmon why aren't you talking to me. Like do I need a reason to talk no. He has anger issues or problems. Like if someone doesn't want to talk then they don't have to. Plus I was angry as always because they don't help it's just me and mum doing the house chores. 

Today is July 26 of 2023 my birthday and it sucks. 

I hate my life it sti ks and sucks and I'm close to ending it 

It's not my fault the cranky bastard my dad got angry at me for not turning off the stove with boiling water in a sauce pan mum left it on the stove they left house to get prescription then when I told dad about it he took it out on me his always angry at everything even if it's small things.